does everyone really want me to post? am i really wanted as a member around the community blog?

indeed, it is a personal journal, is it not? is so, heres what im thinking...or rather, the question running through my head at the moment:

a) am i not concerned enough with myself, and therefore too concerned with others? do i make self-sacrifices so readily and without a second thought that i'm considered a pushover?

Things become worse more from indecision than from wrong decisions.

how true is that? and then, once you think about it, how scary is it to think about what might have happened if no decision was made?