I'm not supposed to be upset on New Years Eve.

New Years Day, almost another year has gone by. Welcome to the last day. Make it worth remembering? Or rather, what in the year was most memorable? And even though I hate to think about what I wouldn't have done, because the fact is, it happened and it got us here, where we are now, and all we can do about it is go forward...but what do you regret?

I do quite apologize, but I'm going through my-own-blog withdrawl. I hate to have to be cryptic on here, but what else can I do?

It's just sort of like a big "hah!" because they're trying to hide it. Or maybe I'm making that up. It's not like we're friends anymore, anyway. And I'm sort of torn, here, because I am really happy with, well...every one of my friends on this blog. Or...I hope my friends. I start to get paranoid, although I don't know if that's the right word for it. But then also...it really is sad to reflect and look back and see who I've lost. Friendships I really valued, and they're lost. And it's not my doing. Is it? I don't think so. And for what? People who will come back from college three, maybe four times a year. They're obviously more important. I don't care.

But I really do.

And for a boy? For that? Are you kidding? And...it's not just that, either. Who can say what it all is? I was looking through old posts and...well, people change. Maybe it's for the better.

Maybe, maybe not. But then...I was once a subscriber to the idea that everything happens for a reason, and that if something's meant to be, it will be.

The trick is to fake it well enough so that I fool even myself. That's the tough part.

I'm trying, really trying, not to dwell on the negatives. This has been quite a successful year, I'll put it that way. I can't fully say, yet, whether the year's been good or bad, because the year's not over. I know there's only one more day, but I've come to learn that events that occur in even a short amount of time can drastically change the quality of...things. The quality of life.

Ahh Nick, you're so helpful! :-D

I'd like to reflect on the year. Seriously. But not on this blog. But wait, it's not like I have another blog to...oh wait, I do. No, wait again...IT'S NOT WORKING!!!!!! WHAT THE FECK??

So another year's gone by...
How was it?
I've got to think about that one a little more...

By the way, tomorrow night's party will be awesome.
It starts at 730, but you can show up any time after that.
And, of course, it goes all night.
And dress however you want. Semiformal, jeans, pajamas...nothing...I mean...wait, who said that?

What the hell?

:(

GRRRRRR. I DON'T WANT TO BE HOME TONIGHT. I WAS HOME LAST NIGHT, CLEANING MY STUPID ROOM. STUPID. YEAH.

I did go shopping for a couple hours today, though. I got a couple skirts, a pair of pants, and some shirts. :-D

I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TONIGHT!! BAHHHHH!!!!

Yay! I can come to New Years in Pringledom for a while. Until 9 that is, or at least I'm almost positive. =) Notice how nothing is EVER certain until the very last minute. The only things is that I can't do the semi-formal thing because I'm going to Ted's right afterwards. Of course, I could always just go to Ted's all dressed up, but I feel like that would be an impediment...is it even a semi-formal?

I just figured out that if I wanted to watch the extended version of lotr and all the extra stuff, I would be sitting on my couch for over 11 hours...scary, isn't it. Scarier to know that someday, I'm actually going to do it.

I think today will be the first day I actually don't do anything! Well, with the exception of going to the eye doctor, or dentist...some doctor I don't want to go to.

I would also like to point out that I am using caps and punctuation...whereas Jeff is not. So please harrass him now. =) tehe.

Wow. Late nights. Early mornings. And, seriously, fun fun fun. New Years Eve tomorrow everyone. If I don't come, I'll drop off Truth or Dare Jenga for Heather. And Heather, I'll drop off your hat, too. Wyn gave it to me last night.

Posting even when I have nothing to say? POR SUPUESTO!

My mommy and I are going shopping today at the K of P mall. Wet Seal, H&M, and Joyce Leslie, HERE I COME!

I like that song by OTB that goes "Are you on fire from the years?..." etc. IT'S SOOOO GOOOOOOD!

What if, for kicks, I spelled my name Daeghboaeraugh?

how many people vote that is necessary for me to learn how to punctuate and use caps?

and omg heather! we have to do our block project census stuff before vacation is out!!

My blog's not updating. I think it hates me.

Madeline: learn to use caps.

Why does my blog hate me? I think I've been pretty nice to it.

i love how maggie gets on, tells you some important bit of news, and before you can get any details, she says "g2g bye" and leaves in 2 seconds flat.

two weeks notice was actually good. like more than just a chick flick - it was funny! hugh grant's character is great because he's so dense, taking everything at face value. and norah jones was in it! i missed that part, but i heard it all the same.

Debra, don't forget: YOU WEAR PANTS TOO!!

:(

Cryptic?

You know I may have to change it to something other than "snow," right?

Oh...damn...brain fart...
What was I going to post about??
If anyone sees my mind, please return it to me ASAP. Thanks.

wyns was fun =) and now im spending my day watching all the extra stuff on my extended version of lotr. oh orly...ive decided that vigo is really weird. his personality is just so different from what youd expect. and then you get his hair, which just randomly turns into sex hair. billy boyd is so precious, and i absolutely LOVE his accent!

"Waiting and waiting, you got me waiting...waiting on you."

=w=

wyns house at 7! and monty comes over in about 1/2 hour...good thing i need 5 minutes to get ready. maybe 10 this time because im still in my jimjams...

Bah bah bah bah puuhhhhhhhhhh neeeeeener feh iskeaaaaaaaaaaaaabbbblahhhhhhhhhhhh ppbbbthhhhhhhhhh

WOO! Catch22 concert tonight!!!!!!

i love how you have to explain things to parents 50 times over before they finally understand, and then they say things like "but you didnt say that before!" when you very clearly did. and sometimes, if youre lucky, they even blame you for changing things on them when things have never been changed.

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Truncation.

Oooh! We can do polls!

Mini Cooper: like or dislike?

Ok. Enough with the posting of emode/thespark/any other kind of online test results. Thanks. I may have to delete them. Seriously. Stop posting them.

Now, who's not sleeping over at the Pringles' on New Years? Or...any volunteers to drive me home around 1 or 2 since I'm not allowed to sleep over??

ahh more emode...


Emode's Inkblot Test
madeleine, your unconscious mind is driven most by Sexuality

What this means is that when your unconscious mind sees an opportunity to remind you of your sexual desires, it takes full advantage of it. Because of this, things that have very little sexual content or that seem sexually neutral to others, may register as sexually charged to you, at least on an unconscious level.

Your unconscious mind recognizes the value of sexuality. The reason it may do so, is because of a deep-rooted fear of the opposite � living a life that is numb to sexual desire or is turned cold by it. You unconscious mind may be trying to avoid this sexual dullness, and so it reacts by swinging to the opposite extreme, strong sexual desire. By sending you these sexual messages on a regular basis, your unconscious makes sure you don't forget about sex.

If you view your sexual desire with a positive attitude, you can welcome the vitality and strength sexual thoughts can bring into your life. This would allow you to honor the drive your unconscious has chosen to be an important focus for you. It is a message that you are very much alive, and have a great deal of passion to bring to life.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Sexuality, there is much more to who you are at your core.

last night was a good time. catch me if you can was really good, and leo is actually a really good actor ::gasp::
best joke:
"wanna hear me tell a joke?"
"yeah, sure"
"ok...knock, knock."
"who's there?"
"go fuck yourself"

i have this problem. its that i wake up at 730 every morning and then can only get back to sleep around 8 and then still wake up around 9! even when i get to bed after 2 because it was a time warp thing on the phone with monty and 2 1/2 hours pass without us realizing it and suddenly its 130. and then, of course because im so smart, i go upstairs and read for who knows how long. and yet, somehow, im not tired.

My blog is being a huge pain in the ass.

Orly is such a stud!!!!

Time to start thinking about New Years resolutions...

I have a Legolas action figure!
He's posing next to my bed, armed and in "the ready position".
I LOVE ORLY! hehe...

catch me if you can!

ok, so maybe the only thing that really got done yesterday was the grocery shopping...however heather and i did listen to almost all of les mis...

and we saw all the behind the scenes stuff from lotr I today after the diner. omg. orlando and kenneth action figures. and legolas shoots arrows and has daggars (in sheaths...) and kenneth has a cornish pixie that shoots too. theyre vicious.

Me: Where do cornish things come from?
Kat: Cornland! The land of corn...and cornish things...

Ahhh yes, she's back!!! Welcome back Deb!

Yay Kinky! My eyes got really wide when I heard their song, and my mom thought I hurt myself or something of the sort. Then I had to try to explain to her how I knew of Kinky. It was funny.

I sort of like the fact that I have absolutely no idea what day it is. That's how it should be over break. All I know is that I haven't done any work so far. I think I'll do work in January. My mom was like "we can go to Newport on Saturday and come back on Tuesday." No, that's ok. People will be back Saturday. I do miss Newport, though. Alas.

Fine, I'll specify. What/when/where? Is anything going on tonight? Tomorrow night? hblaaaagggg. Fine...I can take a hint. :'(

Guh. Can people please tell me when things are going on...I want to do something!!

I got my Players letter!!

It's made out of titanium.

So Santamas was good. I guess Santa was happy with me for changing the name of the holiday to honor him, because he brought me a new guitar. =)
So it's snowy. It's very pretty out.
I'm going to spend the day watching long movies that involve magic. And eating. Of course.

the world is once again white! and i am going to spend the day grocery shopping, making meringues, and watching lotr I

Where is everyone?

My mommy and I made a snowman. His name is Mr. Marty Hagelmeyer Haagen-Daas.

Red

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice � impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

red, red, red, everything i take with spark ends up that im passionate, red, fiery, sex...something of that sort...jeez

and apparently my aura is crimson. its getting to be so much that its funny

What's Your Flavor?

Mmm ... cinnamon! Fiery and intoxicating, you're the flavor of Hot Tamales and Atomic Fireballs. To put it plainly, they don't call you red-hot for nothing! You're passionate and creative, an impulsive person who puts your heart and soul into everything you do. You definitely know how to have fun � in fact, your adventurous and spontaneous tendencies might even be called explosive. And you're not afraid to speak your mind, either; your hot-blooded nature won't stand for secrecy or repression. You're all about going with your gut feelings, expressing yourself, and living in the now. Exhilarating and intense, you're a truly tasty treat.

i just randomly update on emode things when im bored...

Andrew and I are the captains of the Varsity Slacking Team at CHA.

did i mention i also got a sonicare toothbrush! and to think, it all started out with a 2 am 1/2 hour infomercial...(btw, they graduated to real commercials recently)

happiness is...pink silk and blue chenille, hot tea and christmas cookies, the smell of pine, fires in the fireplace.

THUMP thump thump thump THUMP thump thump thump

no thumpities

its not a white christmas. yes there may be snow, but its gray. or at least outside my window it is. it makes home feel really nice.

i got a digital camera! and adobe illustrator! and the really long version of lotr I with extra footage! who wants to waste a whole day with me watching it?

Yeah. I also need to clean. It's Sue's fault!!!!

Anyone wanna share their adobe photoshop & illustrator with me??

Ok, who dreamed of a white christmas?

Who's responsible for this?! I've spent the past 3 days of break in my room [cleaning], i actually wanted to get out tomorrow..

Get rid of pop up ads!

This really works. I just downloaded it, and went to virtue (and, as Nat knows...the pop up ads there are out of control) and it worked!

Welp. And stuff. You know how they say the camera adds 10 pounds? So does the mirror.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY X-MAS

MERRY SANTAMAS

MERRY MAS

Choose your preference, it doesn't matter - It's the greatest time of the year!! Yay!!!

And I don't want to hear a single "But your Jewish..." comment!

I'm officially starting the cryptocism meter.

I'll be just as bad about it as the grammer troll was.

tillycaster: Gizmo2005M: mike got me a really nice sweater for christmas, and awesome mittens, and his mom gave me a gift
tillycaster: god help me
JeRoBe: wow!
JeRoBe: wait for it...
tillycaster: lol
JeRoBe: Gizmo2005M: mike got me a really nice sweater for christmas, and awesome mittens, and his mom gave me a gift
JeRoBe: hmm...
tillycaster: wait a second...
tillycaster: thats it!
JeRoBe: hahaha
JeRoBe: did you get...
JeRoBe: Gizmo2005M: the mittens, have fleece inside so they arent itchy
tillycaster: whoa!!

hmm...and i thought my sister was different...

The story, in the order of how we saw them:

William - sat across from us on the subway. It was later determined that he was a soft-rock dude, like John Mayer. He belongs to Nar Nar.

Guido - art appreciator from the Whitney. Later determined to be a pop star. He belongs to Kat.

Paulo - passerby. Later determined to be a model (originally for cologne) for GQ. He belongs to me.

Matthew - next to us on the subway, reading poetry. He's a poet. He belongs to Heather.

made it through acolyting the xmas service...now to finish dinner, yes i am still cooking.

yay! ok something school related on christmas, i know, someone smack me...but im no longer going to fail life issues because i forgot to turn in my binder! woohoo!!

Talking to Rachel online, she just said: ahhh, Sue and I realized last night that I chortle and she snorts!

Does anyone remember the quote I wanted to put in my profile? I think it was something Ariel said on the ride home from NY, but what was it??

'twas the night before christmas...

although, I agree, it's xmas...
or maybe Santamas....I like that...

I made cookies for 4 hours yesterday.
They're yummy.
Maybe if I love you, you'll get some.
Cookies, that is...

waaay too many things are chewable.

I am so effing bored.

i feel like i should be cooking now...im a slacker.

::monchmonchmonch::

cooking...ALL DAY...making Xmas happen. I've decided that I should call it Xmas, instead of Christmas because X just completely wipes out the entire "Christ" thing...and well, my -mas is completely devoid of the whole "Christ" thing anways. it kinda makes it a "Santa" thing. a santa, presents, and food thing. (a beef food thing...im a closet holiday eater, and i actually feel bad about it this year...but its kinda too late considering half of it is already made. i just refuse to take part in making it.)

last night was a good time =)

Where are people when I need to talk to them?

I almost called Tom's cellphone, in the hopes that he'd have it and that Debra would be there, cause I feel like she'd have a good idea of what I should do.

It was cool how Tom didn't even say bye to me. Neither did Meghan, but she sent me an email from Michigan. It's funny, also, cause I didn't even know she was going until Friday when she was telling Brian and Sarah about how she wouldn't be able to hang out with them. It's cool. Cool cool cool.

Other things...Bahh. I'm back at the beginning: where are people when I need to talk to them? And Nat...what's up?

that just might be one of the greatest conversations anyone has ever had about someone behind their back! it was greatness! oh amber, where and what art thou - what hast thou donest to thy diecketh?

we must be the bestest friends he ever has! aww...we love you andrew, virgin or not!

My desk is clean!

But floor is no longer visable.

It's a vicious cycle, i swear.

[edit]
Now my floor can be seen, but i don't have a bed. And i've given up for the night. Ah, well, the sofa's pretty comfortable.

I have shopped and conquered (and completely emptied my wallet....oh happy debt...)!!!

so yeah, i havent posted in a while...bc i havent been online in a while. youd think, now that theres no school, id suddenly have loads and loads of time with absolutely nothing to do, so id live online, wouldnt you? well nope! busy busy busy.

first was kelseys house which was a very very good time. for many many reasons. ping pong ball tables only one of them. ted and monty with the mics on echo was one of the greatest things ever. and chats with wyn on the trampoline...just the whole night was so relaxed and so much fun.

then came pringles christmas party, which im sure everyone had heard about or was there so im not elaborating. just a fun fun time, even though i went to bed at like 3 am or somewhere around there between phone with monty and chats with sue...good times though

then...wake up at 720 for NEW YORK!! woohoo! o god i wish i lived in manhattan. if i had a million dollars, i would spend it all on broadway. either that, or i would invest it, and then try to be on broadway. ahh...and les mis is just AMAZING. too bad we lost the game...i think even Guido figured it out after a while, maybe after he was at the second subway station we went to! and we lost Kate...but we found her again so it was good. then i got home at 945 and barely made it up to my bed without falling asleep. soo tired.

but of course my mom wakes me up at 8 am this morning because we need to cook, cook, cook. ack ack ack. thank god my eye doctors appointment turned out to be NEXT week...

How are you?

Tillman! Come back! You said your mom wanted to talk to you for a second, and you've disappeared!!

Who wants to tell the story about William & Guido & Paulo & Matthew?

Fine. I'll put it back...

Test Nick's Self Control: Operation Crypticism

I wonder if she knows what she's doing. I know he does, but does she?

And for me: If I took the chance, if I actually tried and made the effort and attempted

it, I think it would be the best thing that ever happened to her - It's that small issue

of courage, and that huge fear of rejection that hold me back...

It's up to you, New York, New YOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRKKKKK!!

Bork bork bork!

New York, New York, it's a wonderful town...

Anyone wondered why I post under the name Tillman Cahn? Anyone wonder why I choose that name?

Oh my god.

So there was this girl, and she was like the hottest girl I'd ever met, right? And, like, she was like, flirting with like, me, like, right? And, it was like, totally out of this world, like, right? Wow.

But I neglected to mention my enormous guilt trip. I feel really bad about not going back to Katie's (How does she spell her name?) after I said I would - Not to mention spend some more time with Jeff and the whole rest of the Chamber's gang that wasn't at the Pringle's. Did I mention I really like Katie? I should have said that...Uh...yeah...um...So if anyone knows her better and reads this blog, can you tell her I'm sorry? Oy...talk about a guilt trip...I really, really wanted to spend more time with her. Ha! No need to be cryptic here, nothing to hide. Yeah...go me!

FREE SERVER SPACE!

Oh WOW, i'm really excited.. my dad just showed me the space we get on his buisness's server.

And that means...
No pop up ads!

And... i'll be the admin of the whole server! WOO!

http://fluidheat.com/smileandnod/ will be up and running at some point.

Well, i won't be bored this winter break...

Phantom Of The Opera. Tonight.

WOOOO HOOOO!!!!!

I like parties!
I like going to them.
But I like throwing them even more!!!

a Virgin Moble Phone... does that mean it doesn't have the option of vibrating?

NO MORE SCHOOL!!!! WOOOO HOOOOOOOO!!!!!

well im tired, considering i got home after lotr II at like 12ish...and of course didnt immediately go to sleep

best line in movie: "I dont understand a word you just said...but youre small, so maybe youre right." im using that on everyone =)

third period! no more classes until next year! winter break has almost begun! (techinically i have a study hall, but wait...what do i study??)...diner soon and kelseys tonight

brian murphy is santa clause that has got to be the funniest thing ever. i got a couple candy canes from him and mary sat on his lap for a yearbook picture. that is rich!

...but before i woke up at the ripe time of 5:14, i woke up at 3:40. Don't know why, but i've done it before. At least i didn't shower or anything before i realized that i still had an hour and a half to sleep- i've done that before also.

I'm tired!

OH MY GOD!!! I JUST HIT THE JACKPOT! The chemistry jackpot, that is. Chemplace.com gives mini tests on different chem books, including the one we use in my chem class! I'm taking a test on this chapter now.

Oh wait...I didn't mean to interrupt the trend. It's about 10:15. I'm definitely not tired. I've been getting up at different times each day - about 7:30 today since I went to bed around 1:30 last night. I can almost always fall back asleep when I wake up that early. I have a couple scratches on the back of my hands, from unknown sources. I hope to work out on Saturday also.

Do you know the difference between Grace and grace?

And what material is your box?

And do you always stay in your box, or do you ever leave it?

It's 10:00. I'm not dreadfully tired, but i'm going to bed. I've been getting up at 5:14 for the past, ohh, 4 months due to a very loud alarm set to a very un-ignorable 80s station.

And the cycle continues..

Ohhh yeah. And I worked out. I ran a mile, did lots of crunches, did weights, did the EFX gluteal 2 for 10 minutes. I'm beat like a sheet.

I had sushi for the first time today. It was muy bueno.

it would be nice if other boys sorted out their complexes and actually went out with the people they liked.

good day, good day. well you know, as good as a teenagers day could be for the most part. 3 reasons: une: seeing LOTR ce soir! and duex: i am official!! or rather, we are official! *smile, giggle* trois: i can go to the diner tomorrow for lunch!

I am going to work out. I think I have shin splints, so if I run this time, I'm gonna stretch first. I also found a pair of real sneakers, instead of the weird ones I was wearing before. My computer is being a huge thug and not remembering any passwords for anything, including my email, blogger, and even the password for the dial up connection. What's going on?

-edit-

Wafna for serious. Like, totally. Ok, I'm really going this time...

Ummmmmmmmm yeah. Less than one more day of school. I was having random laughing fits during chem, and everyone kept asking what's wrong with me. I explained that that I went to bed at 1:30. Say hello, Jamie.

"Hello."

So i realized that i don't post on this blog enough. Usually when i have something to say, i write it on my blog and just save the trolling for this one.

But i'm at school now and i'm bored. Winter break starts tomorrow, so my motivation level is waaaay down.

There's guidance next. Blah. It's WOAR again, which i missed last week, so i don't think they'll miss me this week.

Ok, i'm done.

Endnotes, endnotes, endnotes. !!!????

Uhhh....I'm still up. Wtf.

Sing in me, Muse, and through me tell the story.

Quite possibly, although edited, one of the most beautiful sentences I've ever had the pleasure of reading.

Just cause I want to be the first person to post today. It's Thursday. Tomorrow's Friday. Friday we start WINTER BREAK. Saturday I am seeing Phantom Of The Opera. Sunday I am going to New York and I am seeing Les Miserables. I don't think you understand the magnitude. I know all the music to Les Mis, and most of the music to Phantom (in fact, I probably know all, it's just buried in my head somewhere), although I have never seen either. This means I am quite thrilled to be seeing both of these shows in the SAME WEEKEND!

I decided around 11 that I'd get off the computer, go to bed early, get up around 6:30, finish my physio paper. Then I decided, around 11:30, that whatever I have by 12:30, that's what I have, and I'm getting off the computer. I'll do endnotes at school, and that's that. I'm doing pretty well, surprisingly, although to me it seems like a giant mish mosh of junk.

I've figured it out! To get lots of comments, you have to post something very short, and very strange [very earnest, very precious...] such as "ip ip ip" which will start a comment conversation. Oh the mysteries of commenting.

My mom is a dictator. Nick, I feel your pain.

am i getting anywhere?

eh? eh?

ip ip ip

im also skipping out on my sisters concert, although i do think she will be there for carmina...because i think she actually likes music, weird.

evan is really torn up. no matter how many times he told me he was prepared for the worst, he really wasnt. and i dont think anyone really is. how can you be ready for the horrible feelings that await you after she says those words? you cant be...its not possible. this was his first actual relationship, besides biz...*cough*bullshit*cough*

and so some friends are doing well, it seems. while others are not.

mix again. im skipping out on my sisters winter concert. we made a deal, she doesnt have to come and listen to carmina if i dont have to come and listen to this. so im home.

i cant go to the diner of friday because of tradition, which kinda pisses me off, but o well...at least for kelseys. =) (yay)

and im not slick. im trying, but either im obvious, or i just dont get around to it. i opting for obvious because at least i find out something...but now i dont need to be! because hes being obvious to heather anyways =) now if only certain individuals will call at some point, life will be just peachy. and actually peachy. like not life is peachy dance peachy. really fuzzy and ...whats the color of a peach? cause you cant really say its peachy can u? golden? hmmm...

Aw come on, people, this is pathetic. 13 posts today? We can do better than that! Just look at Monday - 30 posts! Ok, I'm clearly procrastinating writing this physio paper...

I have an odd mix of happy and sad going on.
My kitty came home! The fool...don't know where he went...
But Wyn and Evan broke up...
But I found out good information about certain boys...
So it's a mix.

HAHA!! I just saw a possible shirt design for our AP Chem shirts! It's hilarious!!!!

Maybe it's the content? People only comment on my stupid posts, never on ones with real content. Weird...

Does infrequency of posts made by one individual have a direct relation to number of comments on posts that individual gets overall?

and im out of english because of the lacking of students due to the "battle of the bells" (also known as bell choir...)

and now for something completely different. jon rosenau and chrissy valiga are breaking up, along with wyn and evan. but evan doesnt know, and neither does jon...

and sometimes i wonder (just because it seems this way, not because it is) if the guy in a relationship really knows what the girl is thinking, despite what she says to him. does anyone really know?

sometimes people think they know me, but in retrospect, it turns out they have no idea.

everyones getting into college, and umm, yeah im still stuck here for 2 more years. oh joy, oh rapture, oh ecstasy. i want out! actually no, im not ready for "out" yet. i just want to know that i have a definate "out" to go to...

Tom, if you're home, sick, what should you be doing? Posting on this blog, of course!

I just turned my head and there was Nick. "BLOGGING?" He said. Yes, Nick, indeed I am.

I don't have to take my chem test until Friday!! WOOO HOOO!!! One thing I can't stand is warming up with Xmas carols in chambers. It irks me mightily. They said girls aren't allowed in the CHA computer lab. Oh well.

Off to...work on physio?

yeah so, im still procrastinating the life issues binder, which btw was due last period and is, ahem in my backpack, also incomplete...

double chem next, which means i cant go to normal lunch =/ but on a lighter note, i had good chats last night. life is a mix of really good things happening to me, good things happening to others, and bad things happening to others that make me sad. and having an abnormal lunch makes me unable to deal with any of it!

"IGOR!" "FRODRICK!"

Yeah...that's how I'm feeling right about now. This is what happens when you've forgotten about your own life in order to assist friends, only to return to it and find that everything you want has been taken from you, and that there's nothing you can do except wait...

Ecky - ecky - ecky - ecky - pikang - zoop - boing - goodem - zoo - owli - zhiv.

WAHHHH!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!!! GRRRR!!!!!

That fit was for injustice. Although I feel that some things are fair...other things most certainly are NOT. I fucking HATE injustice, and unfairness.

Welcome to life. Leave your sanity at the door.

yeah, so today was a good day...=) i saw some people, got moved up on the ladder, had voice...only thing that wasnt good was the whole wyn and evan thing which is basically really bad. and because i dont take sides or get angry, i have to listen to everyone and hear every point of view, which always succeeds in accusing me. i do have opinions though, dont get me wrong, i just dont force them on people. i listen and give advice more...i just wish everything would work itself out.

I was thinking yesterday about the play, and how sad I am that it's over. Then a random, yet quite hilarious moment popped into my head: do you guys remember the night we each picked up a random item from the lobby and marched into where Meghan and Tom were singing and processed around the place? That was a blast. :-D

WOOO HOOOO!!!! I worked out today for the first time in a long time. Since you all want to know, I'm gonna tell you what I did. First, I ran. Now, if you know me, as a few of you on this here blog do, you'll think Deb? Running? Was she being chased by someone? No. I chose to run on the treadmill. I only did about 16 minutes, a few of which were walking for a mini warm-up and cool-down, but I ran. I don't think the shoes I had on were right for it, but it was cool. I might make a habit of it. After running, I did crunches (much needed, hopefully they're counteract the blub blub blubiness), followed by weights for my biceps, triceps, deltoids, trapezius, lats, & pecs, followed by 10 minutes on the EFX machine. I probably overdid it, considering I haven't worked out in so long, but I don't care. It felt SOOOO good to finally exercise again. I plan on going on Thursday and on Saturday, and continuing the every other day cycle over the break if I can manage it (unlike Thanksgiving break, when I worked out a total of one time).

I'm so pumped from the adreneline that I don't feel like complaining!! YAYYY!!! Maybe I can actally sit down and do work? Nahh. I'll probably end up getting distracted by the phone. I've been very prone to this lately, although I don't mind it. Alas, I have some work I need to do, though, including english reading, a physio paper, a chem lab, prelab & webassign, and I think that's it. I think.

In any case, I hope you dudes and dudettes had a good day!

As Miggles would say, Hasta manasta!

I'd like to bitch and moan about how much life sucks, but I'd end up being cryptic.

Neener neener!! Posting to you from Tom's lap :-O

Yeahhhhhhhhhh it smells like rank, nasty, formaldahydy (Tom says "close enough") pigs. EEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!

Today...it got worse and worse and worse and now Tom is moving the chair down. It started with my failing a math test, followed by...I don't remember and I have to go cause SOMEONE'S kicking me off their lap and OFF THE GOOD CHAIR EVEN THOUGH THEY'RE NOT EVEN IN THIS CLASS. Shut up, Tom, I'm pluralizing you. Deal with it. WAHHHH SHUT UP!!! STOP CORRECTING ME! Alex doesn't even DO grammar ratings anymore!

YAYYYYYY NAT!!!! WOOO HOOO!!

I decided that I think this past weekend was, in fact, a dream.

it's official.

the definition of wafna has been revealed to me.

do you want to know what it means?

oO...wafna...

aww, that's so cute, i always thought jeff and monty made a great coup...wait a second...

as for all these posts about which language to post in:

there's no language, like a dead language!

and talk about things spreading quickly! yesterday, three people knew about the "love triangle" from saturday - now the entire school knows. whoa! what a second! how'd that happen? i think someone must have told...dare i say the name...?

jesus, talks with guys, talks with girls, i dunno, im definately getting myself way too in the middle of things, but when looked at from a certain point of view, that's not bad...oh decisions...

and myself! god, who wants to hear about that?

West Coast BABY!

basically im not mad at jeff for stealing monty away anymore either

basically, i agreed with heather: my day sucked...until i got home. then it made my entire week. three amazingly wonderful sweet guys made my week. i love you guys so much lol. i like went around the house for an hour going "i love my friends...i have nice friends..." and things of that sort. lol

In case my last post didn't make it clear enough:
TODAY SUCKED!!!!!!

I'm de-stressing.
Herbal tea, guitar, scented candles, a snack, pajamas...it's not so much working though...
Today sucked.

That was really strange. I tried to post, and this thing popped up telling me to log into my FTP server. I guessed the password, but I suppose I was right, because it posted. Que extra�

I think I am going to work out tomorrow. I need to start up again, to further prevent the already in progress blub blub blubbing.

Did anyone else stay home today (aside from Nick and me)?

I was expecting many many new and exciting posts since I last checked this blog. I DON'T CARE THAT YOU NERDS WERE AT SCHOOL, YOU SHOULD POST ANYWAY. For my enjoyment and delectation, of course. I really need to go do some homework.

Heyyyy Nat: any chance you could help me with the math take home thing that I don't understand for my life? I know I'm gonna fail the in class thing tomorrow, but for some reason I just don't care. How strange.

im sad for deux reasons. one: evan and wyn. problems. cast party. breaking up? peut etre. je ne sais pas, comme de maitenent. and two: jeff took a certain person away on an errand to who knows where and now i cant see him. plus hal told him what i said at the cast party. you cannot hold me accountable for it! i may have said it, but i wasnt in a state to take seriously...

"The anatomical juxtaposition of two orbicularis oris muscles in a state of contraction." I didn't make this up! This quote is from some guy named Dr. Henry Gibbons (can you guess to what he's referring?).

Yeah...I fixed my hair eventually...

I liked when Debra and I stood outside the door making weird noises, such as eeeehhhhhhhhhhhh and BOOP BOOP BOOP BOOP BOOP BOOP BOOP...

1 hour of sleep Saturday night/Sunday morning. Home = nap from 3:30 - 7, sleep from 10 - 9:50. I'm not doing the math, but hopefully they equal each other out.

I'll try to leave the really depressing posts to my blog.

im on 17 hours of sleep for this entire weekend. not to mention only about 41 hours for the ENTIRE week starting for last sunday. i should have twice as much.

yay! we have a sue! and im a happy chica again, tired, but happy. see im way to easily distracted to be moody.

Yeah.
So it's over.
Wow...

Well, less than 2 months til we start the whole crazy process again.

And might I add that it is the most disconcerting feeling ever to be sent out of a room with full knowledge that everyone is then going to talk about you...

Tehe.
Sleep deprivation is FUN!
So we got to bed at 430 this morning (when Chris stopped snoring), and got up around 9...
And shopped! Oh fun shopping....hehehe...
And then I took a nap.
And a shower.
AAAAAAAAAAAHHH.
Those were niiiiice.
And last night's performance was sooooo great you guys! I'm so proud!
Let's give 'em hell one last time tonight. (don't start crying YET!)
=)

"Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, that's life..."

I was trolling blogs today for the first time in a while. I was reading Nar Nar's, but she doesn't have comments, so I'm gonna comment here. Four dots ("....") is correct sometimes, because one of the dots may be ending the sentence. Yes, I know "dots" is not the correct term, but I care not. Also, the band 311 said it perfectly: "You can't be let down if you don't expect the world."

That's it for my response to her blog.

I'm getting a really weird feeling in my stomach. It's of a greater magnitude than I had before we performed the last two nights, and I know exactly why. I'm sure you can also figure out why, if you think about it for a second. I'm feeling helpless, unable to prevent the hours from passing so quickly. I think I need to go take a nap.

yes, i am bubbling. that boy and i are going to the mall tomorrow.

THAT BASS PLAYER IS A GREMLIN! I swear it! WHO'S GOT A LOT OF MOXY? It's us, it's us! Wow. All I have to say, is WOW. I really want to rave about this more, but my mom wants me to get off the computer. Woe is me, a lack a day. Everything went well; almost completely perfect. I'll try not to complain about the 10 times various people stepped on my dress (Madeline started the trend with the first three step-ons). Goodnight everyone, I will see you tomorrow!

yeah so i like a boy...ALOT ALOT

and cast party goals? what is that? ok heather, im sorry, but im no longer into attempting to fulfill your idea of hilarious. hes just not that attractive anymore...personality wise, and im exhausting wasted energy. maybe someone else. maybe 4 other someone elses. maybe not. maybe a good time watching heather get with someone?? eh??

tehe...i really like a boy...tehe

we were so on tonight! screw gremlins and stupid friday the 13th! go players!! you rock guys!

boyboyboyboyboy tehe =) (and she smiles REAL big)

Maybe I'll save the explanation for later...

OH MY GOD YOU GUYS, we have such unbelievable MOXY. And we kicked the hell out of those gremlins. Awesome job to all!

I'm so sorry everyone...I'm so sorry.

Do me a favor?

Make it sparkle, make it shine, give 'em hell.

AHHH!!!! Why must i wait another week [hopefully sooner...] before i find out what my fate for the next 4 years is going to be?!

Hullo merry Bloggers!!
I'm excited to see my computer!
I've been online since Tuesday, but this is the first time since then that I've been up here...
MIS MIS GEH!
Get ready for another great show!!

Okay, back tracking to tonight...what a weird way to put it...

A camara will be there tonight! I swear it! And a video camara, one that I can edit with later so that we have ourselves one hell of a players movie marathon thing-a-ma-bob. Players r0x0r3d! Wow...I can't wait for tonight. Does anyone know if Jess is coming to one of the shows? And Laura for that matter...?

It's time to kick some ass!

I'm sorry. Homework? That's a negatory. It may very well be a negatory for a while. YOU KNOW WHY!!

Alright, sorry. I don't want to gloat, I'm just really excited.

I got on stage last night, saw the audience, and realized hey, they're just a bunch of people. Who cares? It was great.

All I'll say other than that is that the gremlins were really wreaking havoc, and they MUST get stomped out tonight!

I GOT INTO PENN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Um...should I take this as a sign?

Ok...I'm drawing a line at the non-stop posting.

______________________________

There. Now stop it.

but no one knows where alex is...

and yes, we are all in the same room, which just happens to be the art cave...lol

aka, me, madeline, heather...before heather left...

and now its time to be serious, if i can be...

heather just asked where her brother is, alex, where are you?

basically, im really worried about tonight and it all and messing up and not being able to handle it onstage with all my dragoon dudes...oy, we were never able to take the pressure very well. in fact, the only way to make any of us feel any better about the entire situation was to have "dragoon meetings" after practice...no time for that now...hehe

im bringing a camara to the production tonight, and bringing it backstage to film the good ol' time we are gonna have there. oy...god help the audience that has to see my mullified hair when we dont have to wear our caps...

and then theres the entire life thing...which, when i think about it, doesnt mean much...i mean, with parents and the such, relatives, and even teachers sometimes, dont you just feel as though its not really worth the trouble at all? im not sure about it yet, i dont think. but i think that soon enough, the option will present itself, even though im just babling on and on and on...this is what happens when you can type as fast as you can think. as i said before, hmm...

well, the simple answer of course, is as follows:

Wafna!

hehe

okay, time to elaborate on my previous post:

hmm...

hmm...hmm indeed...

So I'm posting now because I doubt I'll get around to it later (and judging by my AIM state, I haven't been online for a while...).
OPENING NIGHT!!!
Get pumped!!
Give 'em hell, guys.
=)

Make it sparkle, make it shine, give em hell!!

Thursday and yes, I'm breaking the rules...OPENING NIGHT TONIGHT! but you know, im not scared about it. im really, really excited. last night, i could actually see it happening, like, as a contrast to a few days ago, i think people can come and watch us not make fools of ourselves and have a pretty good time doing it too. This is one of those cases where if you have no expectations because you dont want to let yourself down, youre screwed. think happy thoughts =)

players breakfast is such a good thing...whats up with only eating HALF a danish??? i feel like were important people when we can go get food when no one else is allowed. tehe. so i take advantage of that fact...so full....

right so now that my huge history test is over and done with, i now i have a paper to write for it tonight and two more test to study for! oh joy! oh rapture! oh ecstasy! (funny how that line really isnt even in the play...) another late night for mads...

ok, now i absolutely have no goals for the cast party. not even hopes. itll be a fun night anyway, for different reasons.

Does anyone else find it funny that as soon as we get more space, we start posting less?

"We wash our hands
Whenever we eat
And in the bath we wash our ears our elbows and feet
We gotta be clean..."

no trolling on players days because when i get home, i SLEEP (and finish homework, which will consist of studying for entirely too huge of a history test as well as a bunch of others) techinically, i was supposed to have a french test today. but he forgot our class yesterday and then forgot about the test today and scheduled tomorrow, which he forgot was the day we didn t have class (and you wonder why we like him so much...no actually, i just love him anyways). im also supposed to techincally have dance today. my schedule is fucked up and so im supposed to have dance on the opposite days that i do, interesting...im not cutting, i swear!

ive decided against "goals"...and yet there are certain individuals (yes this is meant to be plural) who definately wouldnt be a bad thing...

im so excited about the pictures of the play! we look really good (if we only sounded so...we can do it....last dress rehearsal tonight, and im soooo nervous)...and the greatest thing of all: i have cleavage! (which, yes, vr does talk into)

41/41 ON webASSign!!! WOOOO HOOOO!! i CAN GO TO BED!

Technically I should start and finish the chem lab report that's due tomorrow. HAHAHAH. Yeah right. I'm going TO BED!

It feels so good to sit down. I stood up almost the entire time from 6 until 10:30.

I'm sleepy.

Great news! I can sum up today with a colon and a parenthese (is that singular for parenthesis?)...

:(

If they can send in a substitute teacher, can I send in a substitute student?

so here i am, stuck on my old imac from back before i knew any of you and was living along the lines of locking myself in my room and using this machine to basically render three dimensional mountains which i happened to lose all of during an extremely bad crash...but thats getting off track. or is it? confusing to not have a track to keep track of, isnt it? hehe...

well, its 12:15 AM, and ive just finished posting the entire winter schedule for CHA on their webpage, thereby reducing the chance i will be eaten by parker to a mere 25%, because you always have to assuem, 75% of the time, that he will indeed filet and fast food you whilst strolling camly down the hall...

of late, i think people think there is something wrong with me because they either say i look rather odd or sick, or ask me if there is something wrong without me even mentioning a word...is there something wrong with me? that wouldnt be...uh...expected? "cool"? bah-humbug...again and again i turn things over in my mind, to find that the worst is not that bad, and that the best is spectacular...enough to make up for even those long thinking nights...indeed...

goodnight all, sweet dreams

I give up?

It lies! Allow me to quote for you...

[Natalie, you're Sweet 'n' Sexy!]

What's hiding behind that innocent smile? A little devil perhaps? A tattoo in a seductive spot saved only for your lover? Possibly, but you're so good, you'll never tell. Or will you?

What?! Me? Innocent? Good? The devil inside of me is hiding? What?!

Emode has a history [for me] of telling blantant lies, such as being a snugglebunny and an optimist.

i also happen to be a siren as a goddess and my "true color" is "sensual red"...seeing any trends?

What Kind of Sexy Are You?


madeleine, you're Hot 'n' Sexy

When you enter a room, all eyes gravitate toward you. Like a moth to a flame, people can't help but notice you. Maybe it's how you casually move through a crowd or that glow you give off when you flash that smile. You're hot and it shows. Could it be the haircut that says it all about you, the jeans that fit just right, or the casual way you saunter across a room looking confident from all angles?

hmmm....emode.com....i dont feel like that....

im exhausted, and wow, its only monday! the first day of hell week and im just gone. also, ive given up on life. does no hope make things easier?

my horoscope today: you will use a lot of energy to get what you want. however, do not be too aggressive.

hmmm...what could that mean?

i found a push up bra! yay! but i dont know if it works yet. nothing ever does. now i need: eyelashes, hankerchief, and direction.

AHEM. Thank you (you know who you are).

Oh yeah...my contacts came today! WOO HOO!!

Pues, quer�a hablar contigo a las dos, pero no sab�a donde estabas, y no quer�a caminar a todos los lugares donde habr�as estado.

I don't know if I have time tomorrow. I know I have one free, you have free, but....there's work. I don't know if you have, or if I have.

AHHH!!!!

I need to work on my senior project. I just called one place and the guy's secratery said he's not available now so he'll have to call me. Dammit. This is not gonna get done by Thursday. Fuck. Mrs. Allen said she wouldn't be my advisor if I hand it in late. Part of me thinks she's serious...

Nat and I had an interesting convo on the way down to SS this morning. It basically went like this: "How're you?" "I don't know." "Why?" "I don't know. How're you?" "I don't know..." That's how it went. After thinking about it, though, Nat was able to come up with some sort of [vague] conclusion. I, however, didn't think about it, and am still at the "I don't know" phase. This phase is much better than the "life is horrible" phase, so I'm sticking to not thinking. In fact, thinking will be sort of hard, since my brains happened to spill out of my head during my free last period. It's ok, though, I killed them. I stepped on them.

Deb's braines wuz heee...

Would you buy my new invention, called Time In A Can�?

I LOVE when I am typing out a post, and I accidentally go to another blog. DAMMIT!

Mrs. Blenheim also told me to get a push up bra.

What do you get if you put two blub blub blubbing Debs in the same room? No really, I want to know. It might be funny.

I don't feel like writing about the rehersal, except to say that MY TRAIN IS SO FREAKING LONG AND I TRIPPED OVER MY DRESS THREE TIMES AND NEARLY DIED. However, the dress is a very pretty color.

I came home, I felt like crap from having not had anything to eat for a while, ate my dinner, still felt like crap, took a motrin, took a nap. I laid down around 6:45. Couldn't stop thinking about the play. Thinking thinking thinking. Play play play. About about about. Various songs, lines, etc. running through my head. Image of me, saying "marked you how grandly..." and falling FLAT on my face. That was when I took the motrin. Back to bed, sleeeeeeeep. Till 9:30 when my mom came and woke me up. Or was it 9? She was supposed to wake me up at 8:30. I couldn't, for the life of me, get out of bed until about 10:05, at which time I took a shower. It's fun when you shower and the water gets freeeeezing cold and you've only shaven one leg. TMI? Too bad, I've heard worse today. AHEM, Nar Nar...

When I was in the shower, trying not to freak myself out about the play, I remembered something funny. It's called SENIOR PROJECTS. Our proposals are due this Friday, and I have contacted a total of ZERO people about it.

This week, it will not be a fun one, I guarandamntee it. AND there are still other things that need to be done. Exhibit A: study for physio. By study, I mean read the chapter. Exhibit B: coreograph my dance for dance class. Have I started? ::Laughs haughtily; falls over:: That's not all. Not even close. "And how should I presume..."

Um...this is really long. Technically it could go in my blog, but no one seems to troll it, and...wait. Why am I making an excuse? Who cares. Some people post many times a day. Like, whatever.

I still stand in the same place with the not thinking thing. It's bad for me, thinking.

god damnit to fucking hell

why the fuck cant i just stop thinking about it all?!?

does everyone really want me to post? am i really wanted as a member around the community blog?

indeed, it is a personal journal, is it not? is so, heres what im thinking...or rather, the question running through my head at the moment:

a) am i not concerned enough with myself, and therefore too concerned with others? do i make self-sacrifices so readily and without a second thought that i'm considered a pushover?

Things become worse more from indecision than from wrong decisions.

how true is that? and then, once you think about it, how scary is it to think about what might have happened if no decision was made?

so dress rehearsal wasnt a complete train wreck! hell week has begun and i am so excited, but at the same time to scared. i love my pretty dress, but i cant walk in it and i doesnt stay up because i have no boobs. dammit. even mrs blenheim told me that i needed a pushup bra. i need more than that. wonder bra water bra pushup maddness thingy. "i have on yards and yards of cloth and yet i still feel naked."

we also dont have rehearsal tomorrow *tear* and *spaz* (because, according to me, we need it more than i need sleep)

and life is silly! but right now its improving =). its weird too, because today i starting talk to a certain individual who i havent talked to since two weeks after hellweek last year.....odd enough. and well, as that might be cryptic, you all know exactly who that person is.

Life is silly.
No that wasn't cryptic.
It was just a thought.
Interpret it as you like.

I've noticed a trend, whereby Maggie, Dieck, and Tillman don't post anymore.

Durrrrr. Hey there everyone. I should go to bed. I don't feel like going to bed.

My shower was bad today. It was half an hour, as usual, but I couldn't sing since my throat hurt, which meant the only thing I could do was think. Thinking is bad. Very very bad. It got me quite upset, and I realized that the only way for me to be happy is to stop thinking.

ok i havent posted in a while (yes two days is a long time) i havent been online...or home...well real home, like where my real parents are. im pseudo home with extended pseudo family after winter ball which was actually a good time. i think its the first dance in a long long time that ive had a good time. danced a lot. attempted to talk a lot (did a little). gossip about scott, puking in the womens bathroom, etc. but my feet hurt like a bitch. i guess that comes from high heels, really high heels so i can be only half normal height instead of 1/4 of it....being in jimjams are a good thing too, comfiness! dont worry, no more cryptic things on the community blog (if i cant help it, its not my fault if i just cant explain my life)..but you cant stop me on my own blog! mwahahahahaha. or evil giggle, considering evil laughs out of me, sometimes just dont work =P. singing from downstairs...who could that be?

dont you hate it when you press sign out instead of post??

Who's excited for Winter Ball???
Not I....
(picture me trying to be excited)

Do you ever think "what have I gotten myself into?" Not in relation to just one thing, but to everything? To life?

Ahh life. Surfaces are bothering me. This isn't meant to be cryptic, really. I swear. Skimming surfaces...it bothers me. I don't like shells.

So. How am I getting to the dance, where am I going after, and how am I getting home? All pressing questions. My mom is using the car tonight anyway...DAMMIT! I don't know what to doooooo. Who can I rely on? I don't want to rely on anyone but I might be forced to. We'll see.

Though I said some of what I needed to say, I still have more and I don't feel resolved. And I need to say it soon, I can't leave it half-open ended. Grr. I do feel a little better, though. But not resolved.

If you want to know the scary thing, you'll just have to ask me in person.

Don't you hate when you bite the inside of your cheek or lip, which causes sores, which also makes the already-bitten area protrude just a bit more and thus make it prone to even further injury? I've got two of those sores right now, and they aren't ever healing because i keep accidentally biting them. ARGH!

Where did all the crazy posters go? I'm used to the comfort of coming online and seeing 2,031,214,235,472,412 new posts. You nerds.

Something sort of scary happened tonight.

Also: about the dance...what's everyone doing afterwards? I don't know what to do, cause I don't think I'm gonna be allowed to drive. Stupid snow.

Am I completely insane for deciding that instead of going on a class trip to see a movie, I'd rather stay in school and not miss classes and do work?

Either that, or it's during hell week and I don't want to die any more than I will be already.

im so upset about kyle! gone? and in the snow? i hope a kinda, little, old woman found him and took him in....

despite the fact that it was a snow day yesterday, im glad its over, and being reintroduced to reality is nice (even though heather says reality bites, its better than going insane, and not the happy, crazy kind either) seeing everyone is nice. players tonight is nice (esp since i dont have to make up my service project by doing a walk). again, everything seems better in the morning. i should just stop talking at night =)

apparently i have an english vocab quiz today. umm, didnt study, didnt even look at the words, didnt do context clue sentences....hmm oh well.

and um heather...usually happy blog? lol sarcastic.....

Welcome to me freaking out.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No internet for over 24 hours.
Awful ex.
No rehearsal!
Rehearsal on a friday?
When I have my class service project??
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
By the way,
Has anyone seen Kyle (my cat, that is)??
I sure haven't.
Not since yesterday before he got lost.
Out there, in the snow, with no experience with the outdoors...

Sorry for putting a damper on the usually happy blog.

Yeah!

Can someone please explain FTP to me??

I know this is my third short post (almost) in a row, but...hey, we have the room for it!

Yay, you finally joined!

AHH! Tre brilliant!!

i read. almost ALL day. and i cried about a million and a half different things and had half as many epiphanies. no im not being cryptic. i just dont know how to explain how i spend my day and what i realized or how much i need to get back into reality.

So. No Players. And I'm sorry, but I don't want it tomorrow night. I have plans. I'm gonna be pissed off if they get tampered with.

[edit] GASP!!! Wherefore did that pretty banner come from? Nick??

I had a horrible nightmare about the play last night. It was simply awful. It was opening night, and I got there really late for some reason. Surprisingly, Mr. Vr wasn't flipping out at me. I was trying to eat my dinner, I couldn't find my costume, I didn't have stage makeup on, and no one was in the green room (everything was in shades of grey, it was weird), because they were all getting on stage. There weren't even any crew people in there. Basically everyone went on stage, but I was in my pajamas (my grey sweatpants), and the stage was dark except for the spot where I was supposed to be, because it was time for my solo. Someone else was trying to sing it, cause they knew I wasn't there, but then I started to sing it from offstage. When I was done, I went back to the green room, and Mr. Vr helped me find my costume. It was a skirt and this sheer white, gauzy shirt. I needed a shirt to wear under it, so Mr. Vr. started measuring me for some random sequiny tank top he had, to see if it would fit me.

Anyone care to analyze? It's sort of self explanatory (I'm terrified for the play), but I don't know. Deb...take a stab at it if you want. Also (Deb)...what night are you coming to see the play?

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ummm yeah, its so me....

really, snow days are the perfect day to sleep until 12 (yes i did too), never get out of your jimjams (go british speak) and curl up with a cup of hazelnut coffee and a book. now im just kinda watching the world get blanketing in white and wishing that somehow magically the roads will be clear in time for players...

My grandmother is hilarious. Someone just called...it sounded like a telemarketer...from some police money raising thing.
"How are you today," he asked my grandmother.
"Well...I'm not too horrible," she replied.
"That's....good....I guess...." he said.
"You know, I hear that the money doesn't even go to the police..." she said, and then she went off on a tangent about that. I hung up, but it was quite amusing.

Hey Tilly...thanks for the massage! It made my back feel soooo much better.

I want to go to play practice, but my mom doesn't want me driving in the snow, and I don't think she's gonna want to drive me.

I don't want to do homework!!

If only i didn't have to skate this morning.. then i would've been able to slam off my alarm and fall back to sleep, which i'm sure so many of you are doing right now. GRR.

I've still never seen Office Space.

Yay! A free day to... do homework!

Oh, and metaphors are really getting on my nerves. Really. Really not. REALLY.

< a href="link" target="[make up some random name...you can just say new or something like that]" > blah < /a >

no more countdowns...promise.

i feel like theres just so many bits and pieces to throw together before it begins....too many, we need another week. and it doesnt help when midway through the song i start singing jeffs part. really, it doesnt. it also doesnt help when melissa is singing a different part REALLY loudly in my ear and throwing her hands wildly about in my face. SO NERVOUS.

i should be stocking up on sleep for next week, but im really into my completely disturbing book.....wow im such a geek.....

pray for snow everyone! so the snow gods love you? the parking gods love jeff....and the driving ones hate me.

Hey people, when you link something make sure you target it somewhere else, so it opens in a different window. Thanksmuch.

And enough with the fucking countdowns.

STOP COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS. I'm serious. I don't need to know how many days.

time between life issues and english...i procrastinate unless i actually have a time limit or a due date. i did not until today. now ill actually finish my paper....before hell week. 8 more days people! anyone nervous? everyone know all their lines....

im editing nick, look at me!...it really pisses me off that you can add to the blog at school, but you can't look at it. why is that so much worse that it should be blocked? if anything, youd think theyd block the adding part...because this way we can say bad things online...OMG....just like the blocked aol and aim..........

when im cryptic im sure im using it to describe body markings on animals...

cryp�tic adj
1. deliberately mysterious and seeming to have a hidden meaning
2. secret or hidden in some way
3. with an indirect solution or clue, for example, crosswords, puzzles, or anagrams
4. using or relating to codes and similar techniques
5. used to describe body markings and color that camouflage an animal

Stop being cryptic!

For god's sake [although i don't think Dave really minds], get your own blog if you want to be cryptic. Personally, i'll tell you all about my Life is Peachy Dance on here, but in order to figure out why my life is so goddamn peachy, you'd have to sort through the cryptic stuff of my blog. Because i'm sure there are people on here here who just don't care.

Ok? Ok. Ok!

oh sweet irony that makes us somersault over ourselves back to the beginning...

where on earth am i going? (with this, with life...anything...i think i screwed over the "not thinking" bit....)

i had to do my motions for Patience music in voice today...i felt like a tool. well at least she was amused. 9 days everyone!!

if someone tells you "whatever you do, DO NOT do this." do you do it?

I am so sick of hypotheticals. I'm sick of abstract ideas, and I'm sick of inertia. I want the real, and I want certain things to stop being at a stupid standstill. Others, on the other hand, are fine where they are, and still others are moving too fast (a.k.a. the play, which is approaching way too quickly).

Where does it tell you how much space we've used already? I'd be willing to chip in for blogger pro.

Let's see...a bunch of what I have to say would be better said on my own blog, so as not to take up as much room on this one, and because...well, because I said so.

Debra: it's spelled debacle. Coincidentally, I was looking at the Guster road journal, and they mentioned some sort of debacle. There are also pictures from Saturday night's show, if anyone wants to see them. It's exciting to think hey! I was there! I saw that happen!

I want a Guster shirt. I wanted to buy one at the concert, but I didn't. So, I want to buy one online.

Hey! I just had a really cool idea. We should somehow do the thing we do in PUB on this blog. Maybe that should wait until we get blogger pro, or more space, if we choose to do so. If you don't know what we do in PUB, let me explain. Someone starts a story (well, everyone starts their own), and then we pass it around the room and each person adds to it, creating a quite amusing product.

Off to my blog for details about today..

Ouch!

I just got a paper cut [from my the semi-thick cover of my notebook] between my thumb and pointer. Needless to say, that'll never heal.

weirdness....will you be the instigator? will you try not to and feel it anyways?

i appeared in a story in pub, it was amazing. and the little indian man in the red pants is BACK!

well i feel like we went backwards a little in players....juste en peu from before thanksgiving break. but then again it never seems like we have enough time, and we always pull it off.

There will be some definite pillow throwing tonight. Why? Why why why why why??? I seriously feel like screaming. I guess this is cryptic? Too bad. You should know what it's about. And if you don't, then you don't need to. And maybe you know and you just don't care. Or if you do care, you have a funny way of showing it. Really funny. But not.

I feel like screaming. Mayhaps I will at Players. Yeah, two hours from here on out. I'm so scared. Seriously, I'm terrified for this play. What if I get up there and no sound comes out? When I have to sing in front of people by myself, I get really weak and shaky, and I'm afraid I'm going to collapse. I need a cane or something.

PUB was great today. We did the thing where we all start a story and then pass it around the room. They were pretty funny by the end. HEY!!! We have to start some rounds of three-headed opera singer!

Debra: see the comment on your post.

what wrongly spelled madeline thing? Madeline is wrongly spelled. get it right folks. M-A-D-E-L-E-I-N-E. Madeleine. 3 e's. Do it. And fix yourself.

Nick...why'd you unlink your blog? I noticed the wrongly-spelled-Madeline thing too.

Jamie...one link says "Deb," while the other says "Debra." My name is Deborah.

Madeline's post reminds me of the commercial for Advair (the asthma drug for which I've seen commercials on TV). It's like "Asthma was...only going so far, and knowing I wanted to go farther. Advair is...going. Far. Really far. Under a Christmas tree..." Ok, wait. That last part got a little convoluted (sp). I think I was mixing in something from an N'sync Christmas song or something...

I am scared shnatless for pre-hell-week-week, because it's going to be very hellish. Yes. Very.

Blub blub blub.

Everyone be amused by the fact that I'm single!!!
I know I am...
Giggle...
It's really all quite bizarre...
It was a "it's not you it's me" sort of thing coming from him...
I said, "alright".
Yea, I fought real hard...

And, as I said in my other blog:
Tomorrow starts pre-hell-week-week!!!
Is everybody off book, Nick?

block project part 1: FINISHED! (and so much more to go...but not until after winter break)

Happiness is...sleeping on a soft couch in a nice warm house after standing for 5 hours and walking in the cold

Yeah. I already knew Patience was on Friday the 13th, because I also have a chem test scheduled that day.

Nick: does that mean we will have no room at all, or do we get more room? We could always just create another group blog...

And yes, the life is peachy dance is awesome.

Where's our haloscan??

i just finished the Patience poster! expect to see me carrying something around tomorrow dealing with it. wow its gonna be so awesome!

NEWS FLASH: we perform patience on friday the 13th

hold me.

Deb and I created a Life is peachy dance last night. Ask me about it tomorrow and i'll be able to show you, because i bet life'll be just a peachy as it is right now.

bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny

::Runs around::
::Falls over and dies after about two seconds from having stood up for 5 hours straight::

AHHHH!!! They were soooooooooooooooooo AMAAAAZING!!!!

Things of note for now: I got hit in the head with a ping pong ball.

And I made a friend.

And Guster was freaking incredible!!!!!!!!