I know spanish! I know spanish! It's like someone heard me ranting about how I don't get to speak spanish anymore! Quite amusing. And hey...I pointed it out to Rachel who pointed it out to Meghan. Crazy.

Oh, and while I'm at it...WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO CHORTLES?!? It's a totally different layout, in spanish (not that I mind the spanish...) but I don't like the overall layout. I'm so confuzzled.

[edit] I did find a blog in spanish, though:

http://estrellademar.blogspot.com

I dont' feel like linking it. Deal.

So the count is up to 9. That's how many times I've heard about how much school we have left.
In other news, I feel like an ass.
In still other news, I screwed three times at set today.

I have 11 pages left of english to read, chem WA I could work on, and physio I could work on. Hah!

Yet again, I'm running into problems writing my autobiography. The things I want to write about are not things I want everyone to see. But I want to write about them, because they're a big part of my life. Dilemmas (sp?).

Oh, and I feel stupid, but I guess there's no backing out now. UGHHHH!!

Ok, first of all, I hate writing poetry on command. I can be prolific, but in my own damn time. Second, I don't write poetry in form. So not only does Mrs. Hill completely make my Monday by telling me that I have to write a poem, but in sonnet form! The most structure poem you can write!

But...Ms. Bender's dance is fun. Even if we don't really get it...but the balance (with an accent? I don't know how to spell it) with our hands behind our backs it really cute =).

Doris and I pondered for a while today what we, as Laureli (how the hell do you spell it?!), should sing at the spring concert. After going through the whole of our outstanding options, we decided on two selections:
-Black Water
-Carol of the Bells

Oh, Mr. Daugherty, how well you do youre job...

And foolish prom drama...

I seriously want to maime myself during spanish class. Funny, cause right over there, Carina is listening to something in Spanish, about what kids in Spain wear, and I can understand most of it. Basically I can't stand the people in my class, and it gets worse and worse every day. It's especially exaggerated, because Kaari, my Spanish buddy, wasn't there today, so I had to listen to Erynn talking about where she wants to work over the summer, and how Lindsay went to Hollywood Tans over break, and how she wants to go to the shore every weekend over the summer. The best was that Ali, as usual, was late, and didn't get in trouble, whereas I always get in trouble when I'm late. And I was chewing gum, as was at least one other person. She told me to spit my gum out, but allowed half the class to eat Blow Pops, which, as everyone knows, have gum in the center. Ok, that's totally fair.

Fuck, I seriously hate that class. We don't speak spanish, and when we do it's at a second grade level. I'm sorry, but I'm too smart for that class. I want to maime myself so that I can go to the nurse and not have to sit through that torture every day, seventh and eighth period.

And to make it all better, the day's only halfway over and I've heard six times so far about how many days we have left of school (including a 5 - 10 minute conversation about it in Spanish class). If I don't speak some real Spanish soon, I may go nuts.

pirst fost!

whoo, haven't done that in a few days!

happy monday :o)

According to Blogshares, Nick owns us all, and we are worth nothing.




Oh, and I shaved.

Is Phil Collins not the greatest!?! He totally salvaged Tarzan with those funky tunes!

EDIT: and Matt Good is really good too. (that sounded off). he's singlehandedly elevated canada's coolness level.

I'm back!

I am SO not looking forward to this whole being-awake-and-functioning thing...

Today was quite productive. Returned two prom dresses and got two pairs of shoes, for my graduation and prom dresses. :-D

(in southern twang)

bum-ba-dum-ba-dum

back on the blog, back from the mountains... bum-ba-dum-ba-dum...
ready for fun, for school? *wait no* - bum-ba-dum-ba-dum
ready for 4th quarter - sure to be a drain!
final exams? talk about a pain!
everything crazy, falling like rain
bum-ba-dum-ba-dum

You all know I hate countdowns. And if you didn't, I'm telling you now: I hate countdowns. If there was one countdown I could stop, it would be the counting down of days of school the seniors have left. It's only going to get worse and worse during April, and I'll be lucky to go a day without hearing about it. I don't want any comments like "Deb, some people are excited about graduation," or "you can't stop it." No shit. But man, I would endure any number of other countdowns - countdowns till birthdays and anniversaries and hours left in the day - anything. Just not that one.

::Sigh::

Awesome song: The Promise by Tracy Chapman. It's purrty =).

My sleep schedule needs help. 4 am to 12 pm is not valid for going back to school. And a very happy kitty doesn't help when he's kneading your armpit, only stopping to knead your face during those 8 hours. Not to mention that I woke up at 8 for an hour to wander around the house before deciding I was still tired.

okay, i'm just really excited...actually, kind of obsessed right now...but all i have to say is:

GO BLUE! University of Michigan...here I come!

he he...whoulda thunk?

I'M BACK (avec mon cousin et ma tante)! And St. John was also AMAZING...snorkeling, swimming, talk, good food, good talk, good movies. Absolutely mind blowing movie: Waking Life. Watch it and prepare to get into really deep conversations. Late nights full of long talks about life, death, art, dreams, religion, beliefs, everything. You name it, I discussed it. Actually no, we never even once touched on my love life. So there.

Came back with no tan (sigh), but a new sense of things, in a very good way. Like Rachel says, just looking out at the vista and seeing the way the horizon meets the sea or the mountains of faraway islands fade into the turquoise sky, you can't help but be inspired. And it was an inspiring trip.

Wow. Did you people die?

Pausepausepausepausepause. Pause. PAUSE!!!! WHERE THE HELL IS THE FREAKING PAUSE BUTTON?!?!
I need to stop aging RIGHT NOW so my family doesn't have to talk about where they're moving when I go to college, or what will happen if one of my grandparents dies. I don't want to get old. I don't want to know that I'm going to die soon. I want to pause everything now, knowing that I have a beautiful prom dress and an awesome graduation dress, but not actually get to prom or graduation. I'm very bad at dealing with change, and I like to hide from the truth, so it hurts when reality smacks you in the face.

Seriously, fuck societal norms. Fuck them. And fuck anyone who believes them, and fuck her for trying to make me adhere. And pirst fost.

tonite:

GUSTER!!!!!!!!!

uughhhhhhhhhhhhhh theres a sickness that is slowly taking over my body... the couch and tv have been my only refuge, except when i had to force myself to get up and research sugar.....oh joy

Oh well, you guys made the back-trolling a lot easier by not posting much.

My favorite place in Florida, although I have not been there, is Kissimee!!

I thought school started on Tuesday. Imagine my dismay when, halfway through my DW trip, I hear that it starts on MONDAY!?! And I haven't started webassign. Screw you, Lampe.

I wanna go back to Disney World!!!!!!!

I'm baaaaaaaack.

::cue twilight zone music::

I'm tan and burned. And happy. And sad to be back. I won't miss screaming children and large crowds, I will miss terribly the sun, warmth, fun, and everything.

YEAH DISNEY WORLD!

I have become a jelly belly jelly bean addict while away.

guess who's awake. ugh.

so i spent the vast majority of the evening in a car w/ bridg and kris, driving to and from milwaukee, crying hysterically. i think this birth control crap is getting the best of me.

it's amazing how little i care about the vast majority of people here, and how much more i care about damn near everyone at home.

things with daid are also bad. mostly i wonder if this friendship is worth all the emotional effort i've put into it, and not gotten back in return. why can't all guys just be like tom and cappy and let me fall asleep on them when i'm sad?

i don't get it.

Pirst Fost today goes to my main man Andrew Steel Dieck. My boy turns 16 today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

What is love? 'tis not hereafter;
Present mirth hath present laughter;
What's to come is still unsure:
In delay there lies no plenty;
Then come kiss me, sweet and twenty,
Youths a stuff will not endure.

William Shakespeare from Twelfth Night

There was a blog worthy moment in gym today! Deb and I were walking around the track with our teacher, Mr. Hoover. Who is 28 but acts like he's still in high school...
Anyway, there were these freshman girls in front of us and one of them either wears non-existant underwear or doesn't wear underwear at all (we don't know) so here's the convo:

Deb: That girl needs some real underwear
Rachel: Real underwear? Victoria's Secret is no longer a secret...
Hoover: Gone Public
Deb: PUBLIC WITHOUT THE "L"!!!

I just came to say goodbye, love...
Goodbye everyone! I'll be back on Sunday...try not to miss me too much. =)

i'm quite bothered tonite...

i was backed into by a truck today. my car is gone ::sob, pray for he Ghetto Saab:: i don't know when it is coming back, but i feel lost right now. i don't know, it's not that i am materialistic and i care about the car, it's my freedom.

i don't know how to remedy this problem...

God damn ______s

It's a beautiful day in the neighbourhood...
And I'm spending it inside.
Doing block project work.
And listening to the loud thumping created by the carpeters.
Joy.

I'm leaving tomorrow, and probably won't get a blog in (packing and cleaning my messy room), so a book recommendation:

I definitely recommend the Contortionist's handbook by craig Clevenger. Its really very cool and a bit scary; like Fight Club, but more introverted ,dealing with a single man's struggle and twisted life, compared to the story of one man trying to change the lives of others. It helps if you imagine the main character's "voice" and persona as that of ed norton.. it makes the book flow a lot better. You could also use jude law for a mental image.

I also got a book out by Chuck Norris (walker, texas ranger) about the positive values of Zen and enlightenment, but that's for another story..

WHOO! BEST DAY EVER!!!

I have to say: I LOVE DEBRA!!!! She rox my world and is the bestest friend! She put up with driving with me for 12 hours today for no other reason than out of the kindness of her heart.

We did have some funny incidents...she wrote them down, so I hope she will put them up later on. yay!

p.s. Welcome home Tom and Jeff!

Damn The Man! Save The Empire!!
Such a quality movie. I highly recommend it.

Back to cleaning...

Pirst Fost!

YAY FOR ROAD TRIPS! YAY FOR SKIPPING SCHOOL!! YAY FOR MIX TAPES FOR THE CAR RIDE!!!

::more to come tomorrow::

thoughts from a bored kid w/ cabin fever ('til thurs)

1. www.everything2.com is really, really cool. search for anything, you'll find it
2. my love of weezer has increased tenfold thanks to this spring break. woohoo
3. coldplay's yellow is so quietly cool. it just slipped under the radar until this week.
4. i love warm weather.

Bloggers (those of us still here) unite!!!
We must keep the blog alive in the absence of...well...everyone...

I need to get out of the house. Who wants to do something tonight?

Adrien Brody took his shot and was given the best gift basket a guy can ask for:

"If you ever have an excuse to do something like that, that's it," Brody said of his smooch with presenter Halle Berry. "So, I took my shot." And yes, according to Brody, Berry kissed back. We couldn't get her side of the story, though... - E! Online

Goddamn!

Pedro WON!

I think it was that hair. It was definitely the hair.

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sleep, I honestly wish that my mom wouldnt come into my room at 8 in the morning kiss me... and open my door, walk out of the room, llleaaaaeveee it open and then proceed to dry her hair realllly loudly in the next room.. soo once that blast of air jolted me up.... ive pretty much been up..
heather your the greatest to chat, eat cookies and watch moulin rouge with.. it was the best:) we need to hang out more often... hmmmmmm where is everyone else?

pirst fost ::again::

word of advice: don't watch freaky movies alone late at night...EEK!

I'm bored...
Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaassseee call me if you want to do something....

i want to be home. people aren't callous and mean at home. at least, my friends aren't, not to me and not to each other.

bsffa is making me very, very sad.

It's 3:30 in the afternoon, and no one's posted since 8:45am.
What's going on??
Oh right...everyone's on vacation...
Well it's up to us non-vacationers to keep things going around here.

I'm up at 8:30 this morning. It's depressing...

Pirst Fost...at 2:24!? how sad guys!!

All packed and ready to go. New Cosmo for the plane. Paper, cards, pens, cd player, and a bunch of newly burned CDs. I'm so prepared. Plus, I'll have a cousin to talk to during the flight as well! Hopefully I'll be able to sleep through some of it, considering I have to get up at 5 am tomorrow and I don't intend on sleeping tonight =)

Where is everybody? I look at my buddy list and pout. I look at the blog and pout more.
Don't make me pout!

Hehehe...
Sleep is good.
12 hrs is nice...
And you all thought I was joking when I said I would sleep through my spring break!
=)

Need to do something tonight.
Call me if you're free!!!

So, for me, it's another Saturday. It's just seemed like repeated Saturdays all through break, minus Driver's Ed and Walnut. I'm just waiting for someone to wake me up at 8 and say "you have to acolyte". But nope...it's only...Friday? It is actually a weekend now? And that means I leave tomorrow, bright and early in the morning....for the airport. We have to be there like 2 hours before our flight boards. Which means a lot of trips to the many restaurants and magazine shops.

Awesome shopping spree last night. It amazes me how cheap H&M is and how awesome their clothes still are. Like 15 shirts for $83! Heaven!

Pirst Fost...Had quite a few lately...oO, wafna! Slah!

Spring break is SO wonderful!

I LOVE it when I can't tell someone what day tomorrow is, because I've lost track!

hey everyone...
i feel as though i have been gone from the blog for ages... mainly just because ive been soooo busy... but greatttttt newss.... i just got into Bryn Mawr College... whooooooooooooohooooooo for getting into a highly selective school.. i im not sure if I am going to go, im not really sure about any of the colleges i applied to except Ithaca... however, im soo excited... and i was soo suprised because the lady from Bryn Mawr called me at like 8:30 tonight.. and told me.. and she was like.. "you seem so suprised" and I was like.. "cuz i ammmm suprised"... anyways.. ILL MISS ALL OF YOU THAT ARE LEAVING LIKE CRAZYYYY... and it will be a quiet weekend with so many people gone... be safe:)
have a good night

hey all, i have not posted in a while! hope spring break is going well for everyone!

remember when i said i got into that college a few days ago? today i got a Presidential Scholarship (which is academic). so that's pretty cool! i get $7,500 a year for 4 years, which is $30,000 total! Nutz!

so that's a yay!

I'm sleepy...
I got 10 hrs of sleep last night.
I took a 1.5 hr nap today.
And I'm still really tired.
Dude, it's CRAZY!
=)

T minus less than 12 hours. :-D

My hair is short again!

Ok, shorter...

I need something to do tomorrow night. My last night home before St. John. Tonight is shopping because I need SOMETHING to wear more than a swim suit.

I like doing absolutely nothing. It's quite enjoyable.
And 10 hours of sleep isn't bad either. =)
And even though I'm not doing much, I still feel productive, cuz I'm doing all the stuff I never do when I have stuff to do. (I swear that made sense...).

Unlike you all, I've been getting sleep...going to bed not TOO late and getting up not TOO early (3 am to 8 am).
Way too much work over spring break. And before I even go to St. John, I need to finish ALL of my block project cards. Meaning like 30. Wonderful. And while I'm down there: History on the beach.
I don't have anything to pack. My sister stole all my shirts from last summer, regardless of whether I wanted them back or not, and now wears them around school, to friends houses, wherever. I intend on stealing some back...I liked them. But I also intend on making a major shopping spree cet apres-midi. That is, IF my mom and I are on good terms...which has been a yes-no thing lately, and also makes me wonder about how well St. John is going to turn out...

Coming soon...The war on Iraq, the ballgame. Watch as team Iraq takes the outfield, while team USA steps up to the plate.

Or....

Coming soon...The war on Iraq, the showdown. At exactly noon, Iraq and the US will stand back to back, walk ten paces, turn around, and shoot.

Scary analogies, yes, but I've heard the "war" referred to as both of those things.

Free Rita's water ice tomorrow!

[edit]

Packing reminds me of the "purification of ocean water" lab we did in chem earlier this year. First, I put out all the clothes I might maybe possibly want to bring. Then I go through each group, creating one giant "no" pile for all clothes, then a "maybe" pile ("maybe" = if there's any leftover room once I've packed the necessities), and there's a "yes" pile. The "yes" pile will be filtered through one or two more times before getting packed, the "maybe" pile will be boiled, and the clothes I like better will vaporize and condense into the "yes" pile, while the "no" pile gets put back, like filter paper with sediment left on it (or like the contents of a beaker after the liquid's been decanted).

I forgot to rant about the reality shows and how they're turning marriage into a huge joke.

Does anyone know if I have physio or english homework for over the break?? (Ray....when's the next part of our autobiography due??)

The part of the girls' night I got to stay for was fun. The tangents were great, and Kat is hilarious!

Today's been a good day. A good day, indeed. I depart from my house at 7:30 on Friday morning, if all goes as planned. Right now it's pack pack pack!!

Hair cuts are fun. Why is it that I can never get a trim? I always somehow need a bigger change. I figure I only go in twice a year, so why not switch things up a bit. The only thing bad about it is that it was at 11 am, meaning I had to wake up at 10. Waaay too early for first day of spring break.

Yay for girls' nights! (And tangents...) I really needed that. I feel refreshed! (That might be because I just showered...).
Spring Break! I'm gonna sleep through it...

Tom: I meant to bring the comics to school yesterday, but I hadn't finished them. I doubt that I'll see you today, but if I do, I'll give em to you.

My group for cultural day might as well been a bunch of zombies. They talked occasionally, but I felt pretty bad for all our facilitators.

Haha!

I'm back early tonight! Eat it, Jeff!

By the way, Pirst Fost!

Oh, it's gonna be a good day today!

so Debra was at my house tonite to watch Zoolander (i can derelick my own balls, thankyouverymuch!) and we were in my kitchen and she was looking at a purim basket we received from some of our friends from temple. inside was a bad of what seemed to be "caramel corn" type stuff.

it was called: "Poppycock" and the slogan was "It's the nuttiest!"

'nuf said

My group for cultural day wasn't so bad. Good eye candy, if anything, and some good discussion, too. Found out that Brewster is really a closet computer geek.

And I just need to scream it: SSSPPRRRIIIIIINNG BRRRRREEEEEAAAAAAK!

Grr...

Thanks to Bush we are just everybody's favorites...

i have a sneaking suspicion that half of my guy friends here may be hella pissed at me, for reasons completely unbeknownst to me. tonite is going to be ultra talky time for everyone. i'm kind of glad it's going to happen, and kind of scared.

i DEFINITELY had a "case of the mondays" today!! goodness gracious! ha ha...left for school at 8 am and i didn't return to my house until 9:30...delicious!

and when i did return, i returned to a project due tomorrow (that i hadn't started yet) and two tests to study for and a short story to write, BLECH.

And now that I finished my project, i think...(the research at least, I'll BS it tomorrow...) I am procrastinating studying! So i decided to post a quote that a friend told me today:

"Uncomfortable silences...... Why do we feel the need to yak about bullshit in order to be comfortable. Thats when you know you've found someone special. When you can just shut the fuck up for a minute, and comfortably share silence."
~Pulp Fiction

never seen the movie, but it had to do with a convo we were having. it's good tho.

p.s. PIRST FOST!

I have a picture I'd like to post. Nick! Help.

New reason to not be a worry wort (sp?): you can start scaring the bujesus out of other people. Sorry :-/

This is for all the males out there:

If you sometimes feel yourself as being little, useless, or offended and depressed, always remember that you were once the fastest and most victorious sperm out of hundreds of millions.

Ahhh! There they are! My creative juices, I mean. For my autobiography.

Tom...I need to talk to you...

And Debra...I think I need to talk to you too.

And Rachel...what's the plan for tomorrow night?

Blech.
Last day of real school before spring break.
It's warm. Sticky warm, but warm...and that's better than cold any day.
I'm stuck here until 5.
I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow.
I have sooo much to plan, sooo many things I've procrastinated, and so many appointments coming up that I don't want to go to.
St. John's is only 5 days away.
::sigh:: ::falls asleep::

And Debra - I didn't really grow up in the 80's, or at least what I remember, and I definately qualify for a good 90% of those things.

ugh...so anxious
have a lot of things to do tomorrow that i don't want to...
worried about really dumb things that shouldn't matter, but i do flip out over them...why am i such a girl sometimes!?
*how do we know if we make the right decisions? and why do we rely on other people's actions/opinions to justify them?*
oh, but i got into a college! whoo hoo!

I'm tired, but Pirst Fost is so worth it.

Maybe I'm gonna try and make some changes for the better this Spring. Maybe not. It is a rather interesting idea to ponder...

On a side note; add Max Payne to the list.

i must say. linkin park's music is indeed intellectually and spiritually inferior.

however, these pulsing beats and neo-rock fusion jimjams rule. linkin park = manifestation of anger.

now i see/ you're testing me / pushes me away

roar!

there's no reason why the world doesn't listen to more jackson browne.

playlist is currently jackson browne, hole, sum 41, and smashing pumpkins.

i'm angsty.

dhruv was admitted to the psych ward on thrusday, nobody told me to yesterday after i got back from editing. we went to see him today, he's leaving for home (india) on tuesday. i'm upset about this. upsettled, really. i feel like i should have been able to do something. i know it's not my fault, but i've been there, so many of my friends have been there, i should've seen something, and said something.

i take it back, i'm not upset, i'm just balnk. i'm not sure what i'm feeling.

people are upset and confused and disgruntled and i'm sick of all of this, why can't people just be normal and nice and get along? i miss the family, i miss my sane friends, i'm tempted to hole myself up in my room and not interact with anyone here for a very, very long time.

last night daid and alec and i went to the graveyard. at 2am. with alcohol. in the mostest fog i've ever seen in my life. i don't like that i'm afraid of real life zombies.

Home from DC!! I waved to y'all on the drive home...I made in 4 hours (no...i wasn't speeding :D...he he)

weekend was okay...all i have to say is, i don't want to hear another word about CARS. The kids in Potomac...OBSESSED. My goodness.

I met some cool people tho. And today is my dad's birthday! So we get to go out for dinner and eat CAKE! *YUM*

Hope everyone else had good weekends :o)

So, you want to know what a real imsomniac is? Up till 5:30 last night...

Had fun there, although I still have to be the most confused and confusing person to come along in a while. No one understands me, and I'm not sure that many actually want to. I don't even understand myself, so how is someone else supposed to? I had this same conversation with someone, where I claimed to understand who they were and what they needed, and they didn't even know. Now although I've discovered what it is I never knew, I don't know if there is anything to be done about it. And if there was, would I do it?

This is getting more confusing and more obvious every time I think about it, and it's being doubted ever more by a growing group of people. Time can heal all, but until it does, it has the ability to fuck things up with an unmatched skill.

Assumption is the mother of all fuck ups. Uh-oh.

Yesterday was the busiest day ever! I have the best friends anyone could ever want, and that they made my 18th birthday completely AWESOME! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!

Pirst Fost in 5 that isn't Debra! I wasn't blogging because I wasn't home.
Saturday
7 am: Wake up at Wyn's
9 - 11 am: Walnut, where one of the girls has recently smoked up and is still stoned and so goes around to everyone, sitting on their laps, saying "I looooooove yoooou!" Best moment: Mid class, she comes running from who knows where shouting "Daaaaareennn? Do you have a cuuuuup?" He says no, and asks why. She answers, "I need to pee in it!" and runs away, while someone else follows her to explain that there's this thing called "a bathroom".
1 - 4 pm: Driver's Ed. Where we're learning about how a car works. Omg, how riveting.
6 -?????: Katie's for more Robin Williams and good company.

Mahh. I wish comments were working. Is this really pirst fost?? That really makes me sad....where is everyone? I come online at 1 a.m. and expect people to talk to! Actually, I want to go to bed.

So, as I predicted, 18 feels eerily similar to 17. I didn't achieve my goal of driving past 11 tonight, so maybe tomorrow night. In case anyone doesn't know, it was also Jamie's birthday yesterday (a.k.a. 61 minutes ago). It's just the knowledge that I can sign forms instead of needing a parent or legal guardian, and all the others.

current playlist is nothing but reams and reams of radiohead, deathboy, and the cure. 20 guesses how my day has gone.

botched my presentation in persuasion today. ugh. i hope i'll be able to rewrite the paper, at least.

tonite i'm going ice skating with daid. hopefully that'll take my mind off of things.

tom, congrats about getting gawked over. if only they knew how lame you really are... =)

No french today...because M. Zuniga is out.
Omg, study hall was so fun today. We did absolutely nothing and Mr. Roberts didn't even tell us to be quiet. I'm sitting there moisturizing with my legs up on the desk, Wyn, Heather, and Maggie are laughing uncontrollably. Even the freshmen who doesn't smile was laughing. After this, I thoroughly understand why none of us ever need to get drunk...because even when we haven't been drinking, we're still not sober.

WOOHOO!!! IT"S THE WEEKEND!!!!
Man, did I need it.
And having last period free is always a plus.

two simultaneous trollers are re-united once again...before we go to TAE BO! Where is the third...?

oh beanie baby...

:-D

I'm legal!

Pirst Fost! ::on my clock...::

anywho...today didn't turn out to be as bad as i thought it would be. i didn't have to read my letter, which meant no crying! yay! i did get angry tho because of disrespectiful, inconsiderate edgemonters...oh well...

Bonus: my friend Jennie is home from college and she made me an 80s mix! WOO HOO!
Bonus: got to go to Slave (coffee shop) with Deb and our sophomore proteges...!

Guess what? I'm going to DC tomorrow...so i'll be driving by all u philly peeps! I'll wave as I pass...! unless anyone wants me to stop by ;) hehe

yay Friday!

Haven't posted in a while.

Oh decisions, like doing this, and not doing that.

Trying to wrap my mind around the concept of reality, which resides only in the proper, more sane brains of the World. Wanting to feel the flow of it, feel the pulse, the continuous joy of deep understanding. Not enjoying that which could be percieved as in my eyes. Rejecting, unwilling, undeciding on it. I'm refusing myself just as much you know. I've got to tell them all that they're wrong about it, that it's so much more than they could possibly see. It's so hard to decipher the seemingly right from the obvious wrong.

To reach a conclusion that dwindles quite far from the original thesis.

To sum up the never ending...

At 3:26 a.m., I will reach the ripe old age of 18. I can legally gamble, buy cigarrets, star in porn, buy porn (do you have to be 18 for this?), get into clubs, and vote, among other things. AND I CAN DRIVE PAST ELEVEN. That's the zinger.

I know what you're doing,
I see it all too clear.

*busts out the crazy beats*

goal in life: use acid 4 to record a four part one man harmony laced deal of an a cappella song. perhaps over spring break

Mmmm...Beau Monde was soooo good. And soooo much fun! No doggie bags due to the fact that a) they wouldn't keep and b) there wasn't really anything to take home.
The one bad part: we didn't get to ride in le super volvo =-(.

I think I can, I think I can...

Trying to avoid another meltdown over the block project...

I think I can, I think I can...

Beau Monde ce soir! Miam, crepes. Desert crepes. Doggy bags for Heather.

{edit} rachelina stole pirst fost fromme with the timezone difference and i'm bitter.

night turned out to be even shittier then i thought it would, with further matt interaction, c-haus budget problems, ian being a dick, etc etc etc. i did have a nice talk with joana (my neighbor) and jess, one of my senior friends.

i also looked at the syllabus for amy's class and discovered that the paper i thought was due tomorrow is actually due friday, so i get to sleep tonite! yay!

Pirst Fost. Where are all the insomniacs!?

I wrote my letter. Actually, I wrote two versions. One where I told all and the other saying how I want to tell, but I can't. I'll see how I feel when I get there and then decide which one to read.

Wish me luck...I know I'm gonna cry...

i'm been feeling a lot of different things lately. very confuzzled.

one thing i can pinpoint is that i'm quite annoyed that tonite i have to write a letter about myself to explain myself. it's supposed to be "deep" i guess and to help people to understand me. tomorrow i have to read this to 24 classmates and three teachers.

it has to do with "bonding" in the alternative school (a separate program/curriculum i was accepted to) and everyone is supposed to be open with everyone else.

anyway, i trust some people, not others and honestly, if i really wanted ALL of them to know about me, i would tell them. but i don't want to tell them. i can bs my way through the letter, but then they all know and my teachers are disappointed in me.

humph. i don't know how to get around this.

Tratar� ver solo las cosas que yo tengo, y olvidar las que no tengo.

Tommy me pregunt� porque Jamie no le gusta a el, y le dije que probabalmente es porque Tommy se llama a Jamie "twinbot."

In other news, painting boards white was a WHOLE lot more fun than going to a war assembly would've been.

RPC meeting resulted in chaos and gut wrenching, painful laughter, per usual. but we're getting tshirts and i'm getting a pool, so it's ok.

having one of those days where there's really nothing more i can do then sit in my room, play neopets, and contemplate the futility of human (read: my) existence.

latin is a language of run-on sentences. i bet quite a few of the ancient romans died from passing out because they were talking and ran out of air, thus dying a horrible death.

AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHH.
That was my frustration for the evening.

Great moment at set:
Rachel, Kat, Deb, and I are standing on the dark stage, discussing prom, when Rachel looks at Kat (well, sort of looks, her eyes were quite shifty...) and says, "If someone doesn't ask you by the end of the week...(insert long pause with eye shifts)...I'll be surprised!!"

In response to Debra's post, another great quote from Spongebob:

Patrick (to Spongebob): Liar, liar, pant's for hire!
Spongebob: Ummm, it's pant's on fire, Patrick.
Patrick: Well you should know...liar...

I haven't watched that show in a while. I need to start up again. Even Darren watches it (he's the one who gave me the quote, in perfect Spongebob and Patrick voices). And during class, he'll constantly quote it, especially, "imAGinAtion" (draws imaginary rainbow with hands).

Hey Madeline, shall we grab Wyn and see what's on Cinemax?

�
French Fries Get New Name in Congress
By JIM ABRAMS

WASHINGTON (AP) - House cafeterias will be serving fries with a side order of patriotism Tuesday with a decision by GOP lawmakers to replace the ``French'' cuisine with ``freedom fries.''

Isn't it just wonderful? ::gag::

Ok, ok...
Here's the deal:
The story is no longer Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs.
It is now Frosty Bitter Wench and the Seven Demented Midgets.
The midgets (in order of appearance) are:
1. Doofy
2. Fugly
3. Scuzzy
4. Skanky
5. Herpes
6. Corpulent
7. Flaccid (sp?)

This fairy tale comes complete with illustrations (which may be scanned in for your viewing pleasure).

So...que fue la cosa que causo mis lagrimas? No se. Unos cosas, y me perdi.

HEATHER! Blog about the seven defunctive midgets!

we squished our mess from all over the room to on top of the imaginary divider in our room. we also vaccumed. for the first time all year. do you have any idea how much less dust is now in here? i can breathe! and the floor doesn't make me sadsadsad anymore.

Funny Story!

So I went to the supermarket (A&P) for my mom tonite, being the good daughter I am. I got all the groceries and I finished loading them into my car, it was about 9:40. It was freezing outside and I was only wearing a t-shirt and a hoodie. I was too cold to run the cart back up to the market, so I placed it so that it wouldn't roll down the hill.

I was about to get in my car, and it started inching. I watched it and figured it would stop. It didn't. The cart continued to roll towards the main street (central ave.) and was going towards the huge pile of snow, so I figured it would crash into the pile. However, as it neared the big mountain, it veered out of the way and towards Central Ave. I stared open mouthed as the cart rolled over the speed bump and into the middle of Central Ave. Horrified, I jumped into my car and drove away.

Oops.

My mouth hurts.
I swear, the dentist tried to lift me out of the seat by the teeth with her little metal instrument of torture.
Ouch.
And I got yelled at for not eating my spinach. But it hurt to chew!!!

Good things: one subject of homework, hot peach green tea, and the chance to go to bed early.
Bad things: Block project journal checks...gotta pull that one up =/

And Rachel: Stomp is AMAZING! I'm so psyched. Hopefully, by performance, I'll actually be able to do it.

I won't do a countdown, since they're annoying, but I'll just let you all know that MY BIRTHDAY IS ON FRIDAY!!

Other than that, not much to report from today.

i'm boooooorrrreeeedddd....i want to sleep. but i don't. i don't want to go to school, cuz tomorrow is monday and i HATE internship, otherwise i wouldn't mind mondays so much.

i was just thinking...it's so weird to sit here now and not know where i will be in a year, it's a strange time in life.

oh, and what deb was saying about dinner at my house, i think she was downplaying it...haha. so if u come to edgemont, you can't leave without having dinner at my house :oD

okay, time to try and make myself sleep, nitey nite.

yo heather, that was the song i saw scribbled on a drivers ed sheet; word, i feel somehow connected.

i am watching tarzan now. what a great movie. of course, this is due to the phil collins soundtrack.. phil.. you musical beast. Son of Man, Strangers Like Me, Two Worlds, You'll be in my heart. has any soundtrack been greater? i think not. words cannot express my connection with phil collins. *wishes he were alive during the glory days of genesis with phil and peter gabriel... dear god*

so, speaking of deep connections, i just found guster's either way a cappella. i feel like neo.. on his first day on the job.. learning kungfu in 30 seconds, fighting morpheus in the dojo, and then, discovering his connection with the matrix and kicking some agent ass.

ok i'm off to be owned by school for about two and a half hours. *blasts audioslave*

Due to popular demand, I'm posting my new song. Please give me feedback!!
Followed (By Your Silhouette) -thanks for picking the title!!

With every step I take
I become more aware
Of the icy chill that
Seems to be stuck in the air
The winter makes me shiver
But when the summer comes
I freeze

I pause and take a breath
To help my clear my mind
But the breath is cold
And it sends chills down my spine
I wish the warmth of the sun
Could melt the ice that's
Conquered my heart

Chorus:
But the sun in July
Ignites a fire within my soul
The star filled nights
No longer shine
Because the sun is the warmth
Of your hands upon my skin
And the stars are your eyes
And they never stop watching me

I'm haunted by your presence
The wind is your breath
Always at my back
A constant tingling on my neck
I'm longing for the day
When the wind is just
A breeze

Chorus

Each shadow cast upon the ground
Is a copy of your shape
I'm followed by your silhouette
But if I turn to find you
Standing there behind me
I turn my face to nothing
Just a passing whisper of you

Chorus

Picture a place like Deb and I have been talking about... the "hell" of America, with stupid people, nothing to do, and superficiality to the max. Hell! Our prom is at The PLAZA!!! It is name brand and crap like that. Now, with that said I have this friend, Andy who doesn't live in Edgemont but a similar place called "hell 2" (original, eh?) We were in a conversation last night and he said this:

God! This is so unfair! I don't understand why I don't get any ass. I'm hot AND I drive a nice car!

This was a blogworthy quotable quotation brought to you by Rachelina.
Now we all know WHY does not get any ass....

Last night was a good time =)...even though it left me sooooo tired and with soooo much work. But who's complaining? It was worth it. Dogma, friends, late late nights, interesting ::coughcough:: chats, and good (no cough) chats. So many good quotes, too, and I can't think of any.

Although, here is one from Maggie's in the morning:
Her rents are about to leave, and take like 10 minutes to do so...and right before they walk out, her mom goes, "Maggie! Don't forget to feed the birds and the squirrels!"

Um....Guster? Ticket situation? Can anyone fill my in?

So, why did I have a breakdown yesterday?

Because I'm a girl. And I hate it. Seriously. My mom said to me some time last night "I'm glad you're a girl." And I said "I'm not."

friday was great. there's a huge entry in my journal, which i do suggest you all go and read, but here's an excerpt for your reading pleasure:

we had a really, really good conversation sitting on the most comfortable sofa in the galaxy. and the kitties! there were kitties! and i've decided that i want to be more invovled in tom's life, and in tom's soap opera, 'cause i really do like these people a whole lot.


memorable quotes/actions
kat: y'know, if we combined our powers, we could ruin tom's life!

sue: (m'ris), you weren't a real person until you got on the blog.

rachel: i don't want balm in my hair!

m'ris: ::sits on the ground and draws carictitures of the band::

nick: ::gropes tom::

tom: ::sucks it up and takes it like the wench he is::

and i met rachel (::waves::), and kat doesn't hate me anymore, and sue is the bestest. and there were kitties. have i mentioned the kitties???

i just finished quite a strange movie...anyone else seen Rules of Attraction? it was not what i thought it would be! oh well, kept me busy for the past two hours.

tho there were some good quotations...dark, but thought provoking (or maybe it's just 3 am) anyway...
"no one will ever really know anyone" think it's true?

Pirst Fost! Whoo!!

Oh the excitement of my saturday night...Candy Land and Super Smash Brothers...can u all guess what I did? Babysat! (it's so sad...i lost so many times at Candy Land I i tried to cheat! but i was caught...)

now the problem is i'm stuck here..snacking...BAD! someone take the food away!

When we were out to dinner last night, this really beautiful song came on, and I remembered that I've been trying to figure out who sings it. I only know the first two lines, & they go "At last, my love has come along..." Does anyone know it? I can sing it for you if you're not sure how it goes.

I got three balls in a row in pool!!! I AM THE CHAMPION!! I also had fun distracting the other players.

I wrote a song in Drivers Ed.
I'm taking a poll for the title.
Options are:
-Ice
-Followed (By Your Silhouette)
-A Passing Whisper

oh yearbook on a saturady... and yes I just spelled saturday wrong... it has been that kind of day...i am so tired...tarzan would not let me go to bed last nite until 3 am...

Medal of Honor: Allied Assault is only downloading at 34.7 k/s...god damnit.

Stupid freaking pirating...

The nice thing is that even if I ordered it, it would be here slower by delivery then by piracy.

Dr. Kraw's Guide to Better Living for Young Adults at Risk.

On Homosexuality:

Symptoms of homosexual activities include: Loose morals, self pollution, communist leanings, incessant drooling and a sore bottom!

Lock up your DAUGHTERS!
Lock up your SONS!
(But not together, or with members of the same sex)

"What would your mother do if she knew you were the spawn of the devil!"

In reference to every French and Spanish word on this blog:

Latin wins.

Lampe loooooooves being a jerk. He loves it with all his devilish being.

Fri, Mar 07, 2003 -- TEST coming...
If you look at the calendar, you'll find that I have scheduled a test for Monday the 17th. WebAssign will be posted this weekend and will be due this Friday. No labs this week, however you do have one due to me on Monday. Over spring break, count on some pleasure reading in nuclear chemistry.

Well, even though I was upset about not being invited to this flower show business, I had the most awesome night to make up for it. So pbbbthh.

I don't know...

The party was amazing. Kelsey and Ted are simply sensational together, but Kelsey has always seemed that way in relationships, as has Ted...put the two together and you've got sensational squared.

Oy...gotta figure out how to be more like Ted, and yet maintain originality...

Damn this individualism...

::And then he realized how incredibly corny and not cool what he said two lines before actually was::

Eh, cut me a break. It's not completely insane to want to be like the guy all the women love. Especially when it's someone like Ted...

He's a great person, which makes it all so much worse.

FRIDAY! Part-ay! Pre-party: my house; party: Kelsey's, and post-party: Maggie's. SoooooOOooooo excited.

Rachel sees "patrolling" and says "What's pat rolling?"

Best part: The question before was "Are you a ditz?" and she said no.

"To be honest, I don't know about the toxicity of the platypus." - Mrs. Hillinck, in response to a question asked by Kelly.

hey tom -- way to call me back!

what's going on for this afternoon?

figured you're more likely to check this then your phone.

if anyone else knows what the game plan for the flower show + concert is, let me know? i'd really like to have some idea...

I am so totally getting pirst fost.

I took a nap from 5 to 7:30 because I had such a headache. It was soooooo nice. I ate dinner for an hour after that, and then at 9 I did some products of reactants, followed by half an hour of me laying in my bed doing nothing. So now I'm still tired, but have to read chem. What a blast.

It really made me feel great, though, when Andrew Dieck started criticizing my outfit. And he didn't stop. He just kept going. And going. I LOVE that.

Erynn compared a fetus to a wart today in math class. Oh Erynn, that made you sound so wise.

Let me explain. Coop didn't have much to teach us (he's taught us two days of material and has decided we're ready for another graded item, even though we had one I think two days ago), so instead of just letting us leave like normal teachers would, he decided to keep us so we could argue political issues.

SIREN.

I completely and utterly despise arguing political issues. And abortion is one of the worst ones to argue.
1) Arguing about it in math class won't change it.
2) Everyone tries to prove that their point is right, while not swaying anyone with a different opinion.
3) It's useless.
4) Someone will get mad if they are attacked, but won't think twice to attack someone else with a differing opinion.

Thus, I sat there, quiet most of the time. Other people don't need to know where I stand. I'm not for abortion anytime how ever many times someone wants to get one, so they can use it as birth control, but I'm not totally opposed to it.

Then, to make it better, he had to get into the death penalty. Another one I love arguing (although, admittedly, I'd rather talk about that than abortion). He said he'd rather have people sit in solitary confinement, but that if something happened to one of his loved ones, he'd offer to execute them himself.

"Things that make you go 'hmm'."

I will give him credit where credit is due, though. He wasn't an asshole about his opinions. He did play devil's advocate and argue opposing sides, but for a little bit I couldn't really tell what his views were. He didn't try to shove his points down anyone's throat, and he stayed calm.

Other than that, I may have fallen asleep in english today. Do you ever start to doze off, and when you come to you're not sure if you were actually asleep or not? Well, that was my case.

Now I must go read five sections for chem (we have a test tomorrow).

Today needed to be Friday in the worst way.

My room is a pit and apparently I'm supposed to clean it before tomorrow when people come over.
Mom: Madeleine, you're room is awful. You wouldn't be able to get out if there was a fire.
Me: (stares blankly ahead)
Mom: It's true! You'd trip and fall on this and hit your head right on this corner.
Me: I love you, Mom.

Ah, the rentals...

snow day...yay!

slept til 1:30, made myself a nice yummy breakfast/lunch and watched TV. Unfortunately, the True Life about teenage mothers came on and my mom was sitting next to me.

she took this opportunity to give me a sex talk...OH GOD! i am one of those people who just gets really embarassed and my face gets all red and ack! so my mom proceeds to tell me that if something ever happened she would help me and i should talk to her about anything. i was like "Mom! Seriously, you have NOTHING to worry about." she goes: "i know, but soon you're going to go to college and u might meet someone, and if you love them, and if the time is right..." OH GOD!

great line from an amazing movie:
"And that's why he is the king, and you are a schmuck!"

oh goodness...i had quite a traumatizing experience today.

i babysit for two girls three times a week (their dad is a single dad at my school) and today i was taking one of them to a friend's house so they could go to basketball practice. this was the first time i was in the house and they had doberman (ya know...the dog) and i guess he smelled my dog on me (i have a female yellow lab) and after a few minutes of sniffing and barking he started HUMPING MY LEG!!!!

i wanted to DIE! i was so freaked out! that's never happened with a human before and my first experience had to be a dog!?! ewwww....so wrong....

I enjoy mid-week mall trips. And free samples at the food court, especially when you double up...I swear, the guys must know me by now. And swim suits that actually look good on you. And square cards. Square cards make my night.
Heather - you owe me $2, and you have a few to chose from =).

So, is rippled toilet paper really more effective?

I forked most of my candy over to my mom so that she can dole it out to me in reasonable amounts. The hope is that I'll realize that I only now have a limited amount of it, and will eat it accordingly. I wanted to work out this afternoon, but didn't get to. I called my mom and pretty much lost it, in the sad kind of way. (Not yelling, I mean). She said we could go tonight, so hopefully she didn't forget. She's downstairs eating now.

Now I only have two chapters to read for english. And WebAssign. And math, which I won't do.

I don't understand chem. I'm writing answers, but I don't know what they mean. The lab background tells me they're right. But sooner or later I'm going to have to actually explain them, and that's not gonna happen too easily...

Rants galore. I'm getting easily pissed off today.

1) Erynn's thong is never not showing. It's not even like you can only see the top part, or the sides, so you can tell she's wearing one. You can see THE ENTIRE DISGUSTING THING! For the past two days in spanish class, she's sat there with her entire thong flashing everyone behind her. At least yesterday I was able to position myself behind Ali so that it was blocked, but I wasn't so lucky today. If you're going to wear a thong, make sure your pants are high enough or your thong is low-cut enough so PEOPLE DON'T HAVE TO SEE IT! It's not attractive, it's heinously disgusting!!!!

2) People. Sooooooo many of them. And they're stupid. And they're in my FREAKING WAY! They don't understand COMMON COURTESY, and how to not walk five in a row in order to not block the whole hallway, or how to walk at a reasonable speed when a large crowd of people are behind them, or how to NOT stop in the middle of the hall and have a lengthy conversation. They also don't understand that it's polite to let people walk through doors instead of just filing through nonstop, or trying to fit through the door at the same time. PEOPLE NEED BRAINS!

3) I was looking at a magazine of prom dresses in the retreat. Kelly came up and asked if she could see it, and I had her save the page I was on, figuring she'd give it back in a second. HAHAHAHA what an IDIOT I was! She proceeded to take it and go over to a group of people and look through it for 10 minutes. I walked Jamie to the end of the hall, where I found Kat and commenced ranting about it to her. Kelly walked by and was like "oh...did you want this?" and I was just so pissed off that I said no.

Ugh. Common courtesy, people.

Doris knows something about a certain individual of the male persuasion. Quoi? Qui? Hummmannaa...I forgot clothes for dance. Oops.

Egg salad is a yummy lunch food.

In the art cave, trying to fill up the time til dance.

There's a lot of loud music going around...

the best thing about being home is the fully stocked kitchen, featuring more edible food then i've seen all semester.

this is followed by having a decent vanilla latte available less then half an hour away.

also sushi.

and showcase.

and concerts.

i like being home.

where is everyone? no one was on between 12:45 and 7:55? where are the insomniacs?

at school early with my muffin and coffee from dunkin donuts waiting for my teacher...we'll see....have a great day all!

Pirst Fost!

Nothing much else interesting...getting up early to go to Dunkin Donuts before school, that's about it. Have a meeting where I'll prolly end up having another breakdown...I'll need an extra donut.

No Tillman. You don't bleed. Sorry for the graphicness, but it's the truth.

I leave the internet now, somewhat disheartened. 35/54 on WebAssign. Yep. That's a whopping 65%. It was only my first submission, but hell...that sucks!

Ah, craving chocolate...

I must be having my period.

Oh but WebAssign, how thou dost torture me.
Thou art like the thorn on a smelly, rotten, dying rose
That prickest my finger and maketh me bleed.

WebAssign, WebAssign, wherefore art thou, WebAssign?

AUDIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSLAAAAAAAAAAAAAVE!
*mimics the Chris Cornell howl*
Cochise!

my new favourite song: Simon and Garfunkel - America

Is it Garfunkle or Garfunkel? I was trying to figure it out by how many came up in the download section...but it's about equal. Apparently everyone is just as confused as I am. Sometimes.

Drawing ripples in fabric...and being very anal about it. Procrastination is key.

UPDATE!
Okay, so if you recall my very bad #6 from las night about being in big trouble...it was resolved! YAY! And now that it is over I can tell the story...

I went on 9th grade camp last week with 10 other seniors as "counselors." The seniors had a later curfew than the 9th graders and teachers and we were allowed to hang out until late. Thursday night I found out that three of the boys had brought alcohol...they really weren't being obvious about it, so I didn't notice for a while, but later on it became apparent. I didn't touch the stuff but by the end of the night, we all knew about it.

Anyway, somehow one of the teachers found out about it and he approached another girl who was on the trip. She confirmed that it happened without giving names, but the teacher felt it was it was his responsibilty to let the rest of the faculty know. Under normal circumstances I've always felt that these certain boys who were drinking would never own up when they do something wrong, so I was freaking out because I know that the faculty would never let something like this slide, so if they didn't confess they would have to punish the whole group, even though only 3/11 had done something wrong.

I was approached by the principal today because he wanted to confirm I had done nothing wrong, so I was relieved. The three other boys are suspended, I'm not sure for how long. They did confess.

So that's the story...oh the drama of Edgemont! But everything worked out ::phew!::

I'm sitting at home, not feeling well, reciting, "It's a derigibal gerbal! It's a derigiberbal!"

Orange juice and goldfish, that's what I'm living off of right now.

Oh, and the thoughts of why something is spelled the way it is. I've been saying words so many times in my head that they don't sound right anymore. They sound odd, and not correct. Weird.

Save me from myself!

A body meet a body comin' through the rye...

Hippy Pappy Bithday Isabel!
- love tilly

And yet...I am a blog addict and need to go to bed. NOW!

So, I'm up now. I think I fell asleep at 10:30, with damp hair, on my english and physio books, with various clothes on the end of my bed. No, I'm not going to do my chem lab report now (although it would potentially be a good idea). Although my workload in the second semester really hasn't lightened, my value of sleep has greatly increased.

So.

Back to bed.

pirst fost....::sigh::

snacking on peanut butter and honey w/ chocolate chips and pretzels...how depressing...is anyone awake???

Ever wonder if Elvis served hors d'oeuvres? Well Friday might be your lucky day!

I hear he sang while he served...

can we scratch my earlier post about today being a good day? it's ended up kind of sucking. let's start:
1.) Deb was not happy today, which makes me sad
2.) one of my other friends broke up w/ her boyfriend yesterday so she was crying all day
3.) I found out today that a classmate was supposed to give me an assignment on Friday which entails an essay...DUE TOMORROW
4.) I had a nervous breakdown tonite... in front of 20 random people... had to do with random things on my mind, but now they make sense, so i guess that's okay
5.) I almost got grounded for leaving the garage door open, so my dad made me a deal...instead of being grounded i had to write "i will shut the garage door" 100 times
6.) I could be in BIG trouble for something else....i didn't do anything, but because of other stupid edgemont kids, i may be in trouble. We'll see. This whole waiting part is the worst, because I have no idea what could happen...i can't disclose info now, but when it happens i'll update. I've never even had detention and let's just say this is way worse than detention...

I'm gonna own Mr. Moyer one day, and its gonna be sweet.

Imagine Unbreakable; the hero always needs a villain. Comic-books... *remembers Spiderman comics with the Lizard and the Vulture* Oh, baby!

Homework is a pain in the ass.

Nuff said.

How many more days 'til spring break??

If you like pina coladas, and getting caught in the rain....

So downloading Janis Joplin for research for Kelsey's party took some interesting turns...

Ok, I know that it's part of the history and whatever, but the cobblestones on Germantown Ave. have got to go. Anyone else feel the same way?

Cold cold cold. Very cold. I worked out today for the first time in about three weeks! I feel rejuvinated. I printed a cool picture in photo today, but it had a fingerprint on it (Jeff...it's from you...ahem, picking up the paper every five seconds when it was in the developer...GROWL).

I have a blogworthy quote...I was at Jamie's uncle's birthday party, and when we were away from the crowd for a second, Jamie asked me, totally out of the blue "Is the uterus the largest muscle in the woman's body?"

Somehow the internet has lost its appeal to me. Seriously. I haven't been online more than once each day, and then only for a few minutes.

The coolest thing about turning 18 will be that I'll legally be able to gamble. Not that I will...but I could if I wanted.

Fixed on 3/3/03
by 5 Springsiders:
-Meghan
-Pussy Kat
-Heather
-Rachel
-Deb

"We came, we sawed, we screwed!!"

Special Thanks to:
Brain Murphy

I felt as though that should be posted.
Yay for Set Crew!

As the website with this link describes it, it's The latest animutation from some kid who dropped too much acid.

today is going quite well so far.... 1.) there is no chorus...which is great because we got this new teacher only for second semester because my old chorus teacher had like a nervous breakdown, and she is a WACKO! it's kinda ruined chorus and chamber choir for me for the end of my high school career, which kind of sux. and 2.) i got out of going to INTERNSHIP! Yes! I hate my internship, I never do anything and it's boring. Oh wellz.

oh, and poll: if a video tape is labeled...do u read the label or ignore it and tape over whatever is on the tape?

Pirst Fostification.

Good News!! sort of.... I may be able to get out of going to the Bahamas!!! I'm supposed to go for spring break, but I made that decision to go during a momentary lapse of judgement and handed over $1300 (of my own money...). But now I realize I don't want to go. And now that Deb is going to Spain, my parents said I could go visit, but I have to pay for it myself. However, because I paid for Bahamas I can't afford to go to Spain. So the policy is that I can get a refund if I'm sick or if someone dies in my family...and I'm SURE my doctor will give me a note!

YES!!!! How weird am I?? Anyway, so now I need a good sickness...ha ha

It's a leap of faith, landed.

A dream, realized.

Now all I have to do is accept the truth about it.

Jimmy Stewart. Who are you?

Yay!

Tomorrow starts Hell Week for me. The hell part doesn't really start until Tuesday, but the stress is already there.

So on top of skating every morning and practising my routine to death, I'll be skating/helping Tuesday night for a bit.. Wednesday I'm learning a routine with the 3 other graduating juniors and seniors [yes, learning it, even though we're performing it two days later].. and later that night is the technical rehearsal. Thursday I'm with the other group I'm helping out with [how old are they? Think "hey look, it's Elvis!" and you've got the exact girls]. And then later is the dress rehearsal.

And then... the show! On Friday and Saturday.

Here's the details that you [hopefully] care about...
Friday: 7:30pm
Saturday: 7pm
Cost: $10

I really hope you guys can make it! That is, if you want to see it.. And see me skate to Guster- isn't that reason enough?

I need to create a costume for friday night that bears some resemblence to Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz.
Can anyone give me blue and white checked fabric??

I feel like a misspelled every other word in this post...

oh the sadness....sitting here bored, actually procrastinating writing e-mails to college field hockey coaches....downloading bad pop/80s music. you know you all love it! anyone else share my love???

oh, and i just want to say in Ice Ice Baby by Vanilla Ice...he ACTUALLY says: "Word to your Mother!" and it just sounds really funny...

Debra is coming home today! Yay!

Okay..if anyone has any good 80s songs they like, let me know...

So tired. But it's because of chatting with Heather and watching Grease and Titanic until 2 am. We actually decided to list out the pros and cons of her two potentials...and well, one is at 0 or negative 2, and the other made it to 19. We decided that the race started and one took off running, whereas the other didn't quite get it, started wandering backwards, made it back to start and was just starting to participate when he was stabbed. Now squirrels are dragging him away.

Today in church we decided we needed to introduce Marek to those rabid squirrels...

YES!!! I just checked our rank on Blogwise...
Rank: 11st (921 clicks).

Yes, it really says "11st."

Colors ending in "urple"...

Wow...I was hardly online at all yesterday. It was pretty busy: first I went to set crew where Jamie, Jeff and I organized screws and nails and washers (oh my!) and nuts and bolts and miscelaneous. Then I got a hair cut, bought some photo supplies, bought Cracking The AP Chem Exam, and had my first voice lesson!! It was really cool, and my teacher seems really nice. She kept telling me I have a wonderful voice and such, and she gave me some warm up exercises to practice. Woo hoo!!

In other news, I hate blackboard. Why can't the teachers just tell us crucial things in class, so they know we've heard them?

And in still other news, every time I've tried to post something on chortles in the past three days, I get an Error 503.

[edit] Fuck you blogger! It's still not publishing! :(

it's 8am and i'm awake and i'm home and why aren't people entertaining me yet and i drank slurpee out of the spickot (sp?) in the cafteria yesterday at breakfast. thend.

home from babysitting and in fairly early for me. my few friends who are home either went to a party (and not the good kind...let's all BOO alcohol) or went to sleep early. it kinda sux when deb is in philly and i'm here!

so i came home at 11:30, but i was rudely disturbed by my sister who was dumb enuf to lie to my parents about how she was getting home tonite. she get in A LOT of trouble last year for alcohol and whatnot...(there are stories) so she's had this 11:30 curfew, and within the last 2 weeks she got it changed to 12 and tonite she messed it up for herself. dumbass. her ride never showed up so she called me to come pick her up, so i had to tell my parents i was leaving and they asked where and now she's in trouble AND i had to go out in my sheep pajamas when i was so comfy in my house. oh well.

oh, and i took the evil quiz too and i was GOOD! yay...i guess it must go with the name, right Rachel??

Holla!!
I'm home....unfortunately.
Just wanna let you all know, you guys rock so much that I am blogging before I check my mail (and i haven't checked it in FOUR days!) Anyway, wanted to say "HI!" and thank you all for a fun time last nite and I am so glad to have met you all! Hope to come back soon :o)

Anywayz, off to babysit and make the money that puts gas in my car to come back to Philly....*so i don't have to take the TRAIN! argh...stupid NYC subways....*

Good Luck Sue at the Flower Show! And have fun at the black tie party!

Everyone else: have a great Saturday nite!

The Pringles, The Rec, drivers' Ed, and church.

Four of my favorite places to be.

Can you guess which one has the sarcasm?

Aww, look what happens when you try:

How evil are you?

AH!! I wanted to go to the Pringles' last night, but we got home from dinner at 8:30. Rachel had left a message on my tape saying she was going over at 7:30. I felt like there was no point in calling and begging people to come get me and drive me home...cause I always end up feeling like a burden, and getting passed around like a moldy potato that no one wants to throw out. BUT maybe I'll be able to drive tonight. Hopefully.

Click on their heads... It's amusing, I promise.

pirst fost.

talked to matt tonite.

journal entry can be found here .

home soon. so very, very soon. tom, when can i hang out with you guys?